Missing those happy moments

Been wanting to go to a country that has snow.

Looking at this picture it makes me wonder how it is like over there.

Hahaha!

We would be able to slide around and play snowball.

Hmmmmm.....

When shall we do that..

Unbelieveable...

That is the only word I can describe what I am feeling now..

Happy Birthday Rini!!!!!

Happy Birthday to the sweetest girl I have ever met!

Today marks another year for you to be more wiser to think what would be right for you.

I will always pray for great happiness and good life for you in the near future. I hope with the age you will also be a better mother to our 2 beautiful kids who has never failed to be loved by others.

I will always be there for you no matter what....... remember that :)

Loving you always,

Helrini09

Weekends are coming!!!

Woah!!! the weekends are coming!

For those who are in the hospitality industry this weekend is gonna be a blast!

Anyway....

Yesterday I met Abg Mail.. The guy who had done our decorations and DJ during our wedding.

My gosh after a long time he still remembers clearly how the wedding went. Unbelievable!

Well we chat for awhile but unfortunately I had to leave to my other work site.

Wish I could catch up more...

Anyway wish you luck on your Club Jazz which had been the DJ and décor for me and wifey wedding..

Have a great weekend everyone!!!

Ciao!

Helmi

As the lights goes off..... Zooooom!!!

In the racing world when we see the red lights coming on, all our nerves in our body begins to rush like a speeding bullet.

As the red light goes off that is where it all begin!

Either you make it or break it, all depends on the first corner.. Hahahaha!

Well that's the fact... F1 is just around the corner, some may be excited and some may just dwell over the yearly noisy high speed cars that breaks the sound barriers....

If you ask me the moment I hear anything that has engines I will get very excited!! Guess it is just in me.. Hehehehe!

Also....

To usher in the F1 fever someone is also celebrating the yearly birthday celebrations. Wonder who could that lucky person be..hmmmmmmm...

Today like finallyyyyy........ our kids managed to bring the Teacher's Day present to give to their teacher. Haha! Ya I know right it's a little bit too late.. But itz ok, janji kite kasi ma...

Funny both our kids have a different idea of how they would like to give it to their teachers. Mama dia ada lah penat2 wrap for them but in the morning,

 Rizqah was like -  "I don't like the wrapper, can I take it out?"

Ryan - "Wow, the wrapper is soo nice"

Hmmmm.... That's why we have to compromise and adapt to the differences that our kids have.. well that's the fun part of having wonderful kids.. Hahaha!

Ok Ciao gonna do some stuff..

See you soon.

Helmi

The Continuation of The Life of RInielisha

Hello!!

Since you do not have time to write in I will try my best to continue this beautiful blog of yours that you had dedicated your time with previously.....

I just feel it is a waste to stop blogging The Life of Rinielisha.......

There are just too many things that is worth writing in to add to the beautiful memories that you have published.

Well from my previous post I had written a short summary of what I felt over the years that we went through.

Now that we are at this stage, tough decisions are to be made to either move on with confidence to face challenges in life that we have no control off or live life that we never wanted to.

Whatever it is. Allah had already written what is best for us. It is just how we want to live with it and accept his guidance.

Even since I have found back my long lost passion, things has been great for me. This has been something that I had been wanting to do even before we got married.

I will definitely appreciate the support you gave even though you were VERY scared to ride again in the beginning. It has been like 6 years since I stop riding...  Thank you mama...

You never fail to allow me to pursue what I want to do even though sometimes explaining the theory might be a huge pain in the ass but you ensured it will be worthwhile... I put my hats off for that..

By the way, lovely lady, your birthday is just a few days away, I have a surprise for you... :) ( Be patient ok I know u hate the anxiety of waiting for it..... hehehehe )

Meantime enjoy the things you do and be happy always....

Should I take up the challenge and pursue my dreams?

Hmmmm......

I have never felt so scared to decide before..

Dear Allah,

Please show me your guidance and lead me the way that would be best for me and my family....

Whatever it is I shall remain positive to face it.. Insyallah everything will be fine..

Ok, guess I wrote a lot for today.

Gonna have lunch now..

Tata!!

Yours Truly,

Helmi........

Something that i had not done for years.......

Hi Rinielisha!!

I have not enter your blog for the longest time. As we moved over the years, putting FB as the culprit we have never managed to write in what we felt or went through.

Well to begin with it has been 11 years since I first met you at Golden Village. a lot of things has changed since then.

We had successfully achieve a lot of great things together which had brought us to where we are right now.

However............. there are some things that we did not.

Those things that would strengthen a long lasting feel.

I have to admit without you I will not be at where I am now. You were my inspiration, you were my motivation. As much as I would say I dislike some of your ways, but it some how brought me to think that it would benefit me in the long run.

Your efforts to make me smile will always be in my mind. Cause when you smile u will always melt my heart.... :)

I have been trying my best to be a good father, a good husband to you but sometimes situations would hinder me to be better. I mintak sorry banyak-banyak.......

As we got to our 8th year of marriage, life has been different. We know very well what went on...

But I just want to say, I have never felt this way before. This has made me thought a lot......

However, the burning desire in me will keep burning with the LOVE that I had pledged.

Once again I would like to sincerely apologize from the bottom of my heart should there be at any point of our relationship that u may have felt I did not love you enough, cause I am only human that can't run away from mistakes.....

I will never, not a bit loose the love of my life in my heart.... Even if situation does not permit.

Lastly,

Dear Allah,

Thank you for the years you have given us with all the blessed happenings that we went through.

My only wish from you right now is to give us the happiness that we need to sustain a relationship that would last us for eternity. You know best and we are only your humble worshipper. I hope my prayers to you will be heard.

That all I have to write....

Thank you!!!!!!


I LOVE YOU RINI.....................


Yours Truly,

Your Hubby bucuk-bucuk that loves to irritate you...... ;)

How Much We Have Grown....

Came back from kenduri arwah and we kinda look thru our pixs via Kuzzins21 Blog, laughing hilariously on how different we look back then and now...

Amazing isn't it that we change almost without realising hence this one good reason why one should keep a blog and long before the era of blogging, I had actually kept books and books of diaries. Haha!

So let's do a bit of comparisons.....

This was in year 2006.

These, just this evening. (2012)

 

The Boys

The Gerls

The Gerls - Closed Up Version

I guess it is time to blog on our 2nd generation kuzzins... to date, we have erm, 13 of them...
WHAT?? waaah, so fast...THIRTEEN already... and 2 more are waiting to pop... so by then, it will be  15... Great, great... Just Great!

Pop Pop and Dun Stop.... The Legendary Spirit of Kuzzins 21 must go on!!!

*Copying this to Kuzzins Blog*

A Ball of A Time!

It has been a long time since I last exercised or played sport and I finally did, once again last Friday!

The Hotel had organised an inter-division Captain's Ball game and of course, I had gathered my people to form one team so yeah we were S&M's Team 1. :)

I felt 15yrs younger and was screaming, shouting by the sideline (ok, I was the Team Manager, haha!)...... 1st game was won on a big margin, 24 - 10. *big grin*

2nd match, we played against and all boys team hence we could only secured the 2nd placing BUT it was good as we did not lose miserably.. It was a close fight.

I felt good jumping ard once again and we should really do this more often... :)

Here is a picture of us!

Aftermath of the game, one had bad sprain on the ankle, one had swollen toe and another had bruised hips...

Till the next game!

Ouh, right after the game, I headed down to ION for a dinner with all the Comms Managers; Hyatt, Sheraton, Pan Pacific etc...

As usual, we had a great time sharing and networking...

In conclusion, my Friday was all about having a ball of a time and I knocked-out as soon as I was home!

Aku Terror!

Haha! (Ok, bodoh nye start post with a haha, but that's wat I am feeling)

Ok, I realised I had a comment on my last post.... Urgh! I had it wen u sign off as anonymous... I just have to find out who u are... tak suka nye....! :p

Neway, whatever that was and still on my mind telah di terbawak2 kan sampai ke dlm mimpi...

It was damn real and hilarious yet very real... what the hell! haha again.

Ok, today is Sunday and yes, you are right, tomorrow is Monday!!!

We kinda religiously sleep in every Sunday morning and yeah, we woke up at 10 ish just now.

Washed up, got dressed and it was reali cute to see the kids rummaging their wardrobe and YET pick up the same old shirts and dresses to be worn...

Oh well, we wanted to have breakfast at Chong Pang but we ended up at the coffeeshop down our block after countless rounds at Chong Pang for a parking lot... WEEKEND...duh!

Done with breakfast, bought Bestie Liz some bread and off we go to Khoo Teck Puat Hospital.. Kesian Liz, admitted due to Asthma attack.

Blah Blah Blah.. we went to geylang and instead of buying baju raya as planned, we ended up buying bags of frozen delights.. ahaks!

Set for home and poof, I was cooking up a storm in the kitchen!

On my books now, fried beansprouts with chicken meat and Tom Yam soup!

Itula part yang aku Terror! hahahhahahaha!

Now, I am having my supper... jemput!

And tangan masih sakit.. boohoo! I am typing now @ thrice the usual time I usual takes..

Eh wait, lastly, I have revamped our Kuzzin21's blog too!

Click on the link on the right box!

Instagram?

Not sure but prolly it will be as fun as blogging..
Blogging but with pictures to paint the whole emotions.
Maybe, I need a new handphone now..
Then I will be able to capture better moments.

Ouh, it is gonna be 3am soon..
But I cant sleep..
I wonder what is on my mind.

Pain, pain go away...

My right wrist is painful...
Doctor said, I need a wrist guard to immobilise my wrist.
haiz...

Rejuvenation day!

Life has always been hectic and busy eversince the kids were born..
So it is always during the weekday that I get to chill and do my stuffs...

I took leave today and as usually The Hubby always decided to be on off too, since his operation was manageable..

Nie la the perks of being in control, you somewhat get to plan your life. :)

Ok, so no wanting to waste time, we had breakfast @ Chong Pang after sending the kids off to childcare.

Then we decided to roam around Thomson to find any massage parlour.. hehehe! We so love to try new things/places/eatery...

So we found a good place with a good tag for its 90 minutes massage and of course, for the use of its couple room... Good Deal!

Welcome to House of Balinese Massage!

Feeling refreshed after the massage, we felt hungry so yeah, we went to the Japanese Teppanyaki restaurant next-door and had bento sets!

And it is then time to THREAD my kening away.... ouch ouch!!

Time reali flies so fast this days that I feel 24 hours is never enuff..

But I have no regrets, I love being a Working Mother...!

Time of the Month again....

No, it is not that womanly thingy..
Rather, it is the moolahs input & output time..

Oh how, you wish you could go back to old days where all you need to pay was ur ONE hp bills..
Dun have to care how much water, electricity and gas used..
Money for kids childcare..
Food..
Entertainments..
Groceries..

Oh... the list just don't end, do they?

Well, that is the reason why we must always enjoy every moment of our life..

For it only come Once.

Soon, we will be old and how we would wish, we will be as robust and yet be as satisfyingly busy, as we are now.

Goodnight Diary.

8 Years On ~ Without You

Dear Sister,

How time reali flies and it has been 8 long years since the life-changing incident though I never quite erase the memories of those 4 days of uncertainties till it became all clear and sadly, we lost you on this date at 2220hrs.

How can one ever forget that long beep on the life support machine....

A simple beep that seems so solace indicating the painful reality.

No matter how we say we moved on, we know that we still have you in our memory, always.

Wherever you are, you are missed, greatly.

Lovingly,
Me.

Sleepless Nights..

As though we are re-living what happened 8 years ago..
Sleepless, this whole week.
Haiz, I remember not feeling hungry or sleepy thruout our 3 nights staying vigil at TTSH ICU.
Frankly, I have no recollection on how we got by..
Itu lah masenye, orang kate, makan tak kenyang, tido tak lena, mandi tak basah..
Seriously, I dun think I bathed or anything, or maybe I did..
All I wanted was for her to wake up from coma and that all was gonna be ok.
But that wasn't God's plan.

This afternoon, hubby, me & bro paid our lil sis a visit.
It has been a long time since I visited her.
When we arrived, a windmill sounded from a far.
When we left, that windmill sounded again.
I feel that our presence were appreciated, I don't know.

Lil Sis, I miss you.

The Call

8 years ago, we were at ECP, all ready for our 1st ever Kuzzins' Overnight event.

But who would have thought that our excitement would ended up with much anxiety.

I still remember vividly, how time froze the moment the call came in, with the news that NOBODY would ever want to receive.

I still remember how I remained optismistic towards the whole situation.

I still remember looking in disbelief.

I still remember how time stood still.

I still remember wishing that this didnt happen.

I still remember wishing I could slap myself and wake up from this horrible dream.

I still remember how we had to swallow reality and remained in much solace.

8 years on, this feeling still lingers.

Let's start the ball rolling once again...

This video, to kick start it all...

Touched Deep Deep

I was dead tired this morning tt I couldn't wake up.

I had no idea wat I spoke when hub woke me up...

When I woke up, I asked where was Ryan.

Hubby said dah antar pi childcare..

Wow! So proud of hubby who had brought Rizqah along to and fro safely! Haha!

Rizqah dah siap mandi lagik!

Bravo! Bravo!

Now, he is out washing his car downstairs to compliment his NEWLY pasang exhaust pipe!

That is his kinda "toy"...

Nie baru mandi, ingat nak kemas sikit2..

Can't believe my eyes that e baju2 dah siap dilipat!

Walaupon not 2 my standard, ok la bleh make it la.. Tapi cute on how the bajus can be lipat in a different way altogether!

There u go, folding baju from the husbands, or rather, man's point of view...

To sum it all up, it is all in the EFFORT.

We need that a lot in a relationship, don't we? :)

SAYANG YOU!

Sending Bibik Back - 16th March 2010

Morning came and we woke up bright and early...bummer!

Send Ryan off to Kinderland and explained to him that bibik was leaving for good.

He was full of questions and looked a little bit sad but he was fine and he said his goodbyes and dun noti2...

She cried and hugged him...

Me, I hid my tears by walking away..hehe!

When we return to the car, she requested to hold Rizqah and it was really sad listening to her talking to adik...well, she had been wit her since birth..

Then we send Rizqah to my in-laws, she followed and said her good-byes...

I walked ahead first, as usual...

Pure coincidence, along the way to airport, sumer lagu sedih2...hahahhaa!!

She was sobbing and all..

I can understand, maybe she felt trapped...

maner rindu anak, maner nak keje..

Again I told her, we are all mothers, we understand @ e end of the day..

So go back to your dotter... :)

Check-in was done and I was worried about the cash she was carrying along..

wat wit the Indon guys eyes straying all around for that airline...

banyak pulak org antar maid balik...

Neway, goodbyes and parting werds were said...




Sad to let go..

But I will manage..

Cause I know, I wanted to do WITHOUT one initially..

nie bukan ape, dah lemak berkrim nie, dah jadi BESAR nye pemalas...

TIME TO WORK THE MUSCLES!!

Before leaving, we had Swensen for breakfast..



Bye for now....

Thinking on getting my ass up to make the bed..

DAMN!!