Hi sayang!!!!!!!!!! Itz me!!! im back.... hehehehehe.
Itz been a while since i drop in to write sumting n since im on my nite shift, i can squeeze sum time to write. hehehehehehehehehe...... biase lah curi tulang..

So for a start i tink i wld say the past few weeks have been tough for us, i noe sayang mistake cant be reverse but sid be learnt.. i have learn alot since den n now my idea bout life has widen. I apreaciated every single ting dat u have done to strengten our relationship wic brings us to next level of our life..
All i want now is for us to stay happy like we always did n prepare us for the journey that will start in 5mths time.. Im soooo SORRY if i had made u sad, but now i want to make up to it n i want us to start afreash.
Watever that is gonna happen in the future we might not noe but through experience that we have learn i hope we can use it as our tool to keep the flame burning in the near future... Wat has happen cld be the test to realli see how strong the relationship is n thank god that we made it thru.. Im realli glad that it came earlier n we pull it thru n i widnt want to even get involved in such ting ever again.......

I LOVE U MS RINI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dgr tak i pekik? ar? tak dgr?

I WANT TO BE WIT U N ONI U FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Errmmm sakit tekak i, jap eh minum air dulu.....................

Sayang u r the oni 1 love that i truely felt for in my life n do u remember wat we said? we want to grow old together? hehehehe tapi kalau i dah tua biar i pegi dulu eh.. i tak sanggup nak tgk u pegi dulu biar lah i je yg pegi jadi u masih ada anak2 utk jaga u.. hehehe ok?

Skrg memandang kan mase makin cepat, jantung i makin laju tau... nervous lah kate kan. Im juz so nervous bout tha big day. Dunno if itz gonna be smooth or not, oni god noes, wat we can do is juz pray hard n plan. Letz juz hope dat we have the blessing on that day....
i will write in again later k now i got sum work to do......


Helmi

hmm..its valentine. a dae wer u find people hopelessly & cluelessly in LOVE..haha!! wat a joke.. ONLY on DIS day dated FEBRUARY 14TH. sori if anybody get offended.

well, me & deary dun celebrate Valentine though but we appreciate each other's presence everyday. so to speak, we have been on the same shift for the past two weeks and we nvr seem to be getting sick of one another. haha!! are you on the same sentiment dear?? i love you dear. come wat may. INSYALLAH. Ya Allah, semoga hambamu ini cekal harungi rintangan dan cubaan hidup..AMIN.

Oh btw, on dis special day, i celebrate FRIENDSHIP DAY with the 3 other lovely ladies in ma life...we have been marking this day w/o fail...

heres to Hatifa Bte Mansor

Saliza Bte Hamzah &

Nur Aishah Bte Ali ...

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best friend is always there,

whether you need advice,or a pep talk, or even a shoulder to cry on.

A best friend listens with her heart

and is always honest with you,

even though the truth may not be what you want to hear.

A best friend knows all your secrets,

understands your fears shares your dreams.

A best friend never stops believing in you

even if you give up upon yourself.

you are that kind of friend to me.

And no matter what happens, you always will be.

You are my best friend....my forever friend.

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happy 11th year frenship gerls... thanx for being there irregardless of all the stupid & ridiculous decision i had made or will ever make.. hehe!!

thanxs for accepting me for bein me..RINI. appreciate tt though i dun show it.

and to you dear, Md NorHelmi Bin Abd Rahman..
<--- ur GSX k5 lepas awin k syg...

There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved.

To the world you may be one person,
but to me you are ma world.

Love is more than a feeling;
it's a state of mind.

lastly,

Love is strong yet delicate.
It can be broken.
To truly love is to understand this.
To be in love is to respect this

from the bottom of ma silent heart to everybody i care & cared 4 me,
~~rinielisha ~~

i have been missing it seems. i was busy. with werk. with helmi. with frens prob. And i was sick too. thank you for taking care of me dear.

over the weeks so many things happened. And it all happened to show the meaning of true love. either you make it or break it. WE MADE IT. but i am not sure about you guys who we lent a listening ear. its all up to you guys. well here is wat i think.

this goes out to, hmm, lets call you Ninja. me & helmi listen to ur prob at JK and it think you reali nid to be strong & persevere. i noe 7yrs is along time but hey, its the remaining years tt comes which matter. the years that may come, If God's willing, would add up to more than e 7yrs you had. i m sure you would love to be happy in the remaining years rather than dwell in the painful 7yrs +/-. So choose ur path Ninja. ur a man. u gotta be strong to put down ur "criteria". and i trust you that you would be happy. hate to see you sad. u dun fit tt bill. will be wishin you well.

this goes to Miss A group. gerl, i noe u had all the negativity overview, negative comments & opinions. people had painted all the ugly pictures and stuffs. they discouraged you, me inclusive. BUT after tt nite wen we take heart-to-heart, the 3 of us. And we ur HIM joined us to talked it out too, i realised. i realised tt as much as we cant love to order, we cant make you hate him too. no matter wat happen. its all in the heart. the heart decides. not us and not even empunya diri. u noe wat i mean? its like dis, if ur heart still yearns for him, you can never hate him even if you put it in the brain that his ur Idiotic MOnster etc or even if you chant thousand times that you hate him. you will NEVER gerl. u will oni be "crazy", miserable & hungry. But IF u have reali lost hope, tawar hati, den no matter wat he do, we do, you wanna do, trust me, you would oni be a zombie-like lover. you would feel the "connectivity" between both of you. None of his werds will touched any part of your heart. you would just see thru him, emotionless! tts wen u reali lose all the love that ma have ever exist. From this, i hope you can evaluate your stand. from wat i see, you reali have alot to mend together. you have ma well wishes to gerl..

well, LOVE is juz a four letter werd to those who are juz in BGR but it carries a heavy meaning to those who can feel that they are in a serious relationship. this is the secret recipe of Solid True Love.

Solid True Love.

1. Trust
2. Communication
3. Respect

this comes wit a lil tiff now and den to strengthen the love. Once your SOLID TRUE LOVE exist, you can used that to seal the cracks of any quarrels u may have. you may think that i am talking bullshit here, but trust me. it werks. but dun be a stupid ass, who cannot evaluate the sincerity of the other party though. IF HE/SHE is obviously takin advantage, u tell he/she to GO TO HELL!! get it? it has to werk two way. susah aku nak explain, pandai2 la pahamkan ye..

1 auntie told me, we have to have this "kesian" feeling towards the other. meaning, say we quarrel about the gerl coming late, boy angry, boy scream & shout & leave. the boy have to kesian the gerl for the shout & the scream, not the mistake she did & should simmer down. then comes in the gerl part to apologise. in a way tt equates to respect. i can say tat me & helmi listen to this & practises it as well. it really helps to cool us down wen we are angry. so now, wenever the angry party is letting out, the guilty juz shut up. let the "kesian" factor seeps in after that. no point arguing back. tt add salt to the wound, add fuel to the fire. juz be the water. BUT DUN FORGET TO APOLOGIZE & EXPLAIN.

with this, i m saying tt me & helmi are not tt perfect. we have had our bad times as much as our good times. but i must say, during the BAD & WORST time are the time wen you can reali SEE the strength of your RELATIONSHIP, how much we REALI love each other. its juz how you settle things la, rather than you put it aside and forget, tt shows you cant be bother. but wen u scream shout, explain, re-interate, tt shows how much u dun want mistake repeated.

well, you guys can beg to differ with wat i juz said. but this reali comes from ma point of view. We all have different experience in love, and tt is wat wic make it special, rite? so happy loving your booSssss.....hehe!!

" dear, i love you. reali do. thank you for all that you have done for me to show how much you love & care for me. appreciate tt. may our wish to grow old together be true, Insyallah. and i miss ur entry. hmm, bile nak night shift nie....! hehe! "

Btw many thanks to all ma uncles & aunties who are constantly plannin for ma wedding.. lagi lamer lagi but, hey! it lets than 25 more week now. yikes!!

lastly, i guess me & helmi have to sought agent help for house now. cos HDB nye umah yg kiter nak dah pinish. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ayang, tak sabar nak gi honeymoon ar!! i must admit. i m not looking forward to our wedding..

BUT I AM SUPER EXCITED ABOUT THE THINGS WE CAN DO AFTER WEDDING...TOGETHER!!

last quote for everybody including you dear...

" Keikhlasan hati ku bukanlah untuk di balas.

Cukuplah sekadar jadi kenangan waktu berjauhan. "

~~ rinielisha ~~

i have been bz these past few daes..well...anyway i did "blog" in ma and it will only be within me. 4th feb - 6th feb 2006 will always be our "1 min of silence " period. it should be remembered and "respected" in a way. i shall not hang on to that.....but..hmm wateva.

now me waiting for darling helmi to come. goin on a hunt for a place to call home. yes!

i miss you guys...

~~ rinielisha ~~

yeah yeah mama is back, after amonth long of absense, me, zali & daddy sure miss your naggin!!! haha!! Glad to have you back .... n thanx for all the little gifts. Liz, sarah gelang is wit me. oh yeah inai too...

i juz finish washin ALL the dirty dishes & periuk belanga. We had a lil kenduri for mama safe return & at e same time to cut a lil cake for her bdae...*aweee*

" wish you were here shasa... now our birthdaes will never be the same witout you. You were the one who alwaes remembered, you were the one who alwaes bought gifts And you were the one who alwaes appreciated our birthdae..though i was alwaes the one who dun give a damn birthdaes. i hated birthdaes. dun ask me y. please. I Miss You Shasa. "

so here it is, juz a some of the pixs for your eyes.

~~ Rinielisha ~~