hi..







i am back from the hospital..

i had finally break thru the gate to motherhood..including all the cucuk here and there and everywer!!

i had overcome it all...needles, drips, sewing the bawah part, the INTENSE pain of labor...

Many thanks to my emotional support, pillar, everything la.. here is the man who kept me going and pushing...

juz to introduce our darling baby R...


Mohammed Ryan Riz'qi Bin Mohammed Norhelmi..

together with the proud ayah....

But he is not back with us yet..

He has jaundice...

and that sucks!!

will upload more pix..soon..

me & hub left werk at about 4pm ydae as i had check up...

Reached at about 5pm..kul 5.30 letak appt card..then was brought up to do the CTG thingy.. it was cute when hub tried to be a "doctor" trying to understand the reading from the CTG print-out. BUT all his guesses was wrong..hahaha!!!

ok once tt done, proceed to consult my ever so cool gynae, Dr Wee... haha!! me & hub was telling ourself not to be so confident of any good news, like labour is on the way etc.. so we went in with a clear mind la..

Dr ask about my well-being, besides my discomfort sleeping at nite n the heaviness feeling, i had nothin to complain..oh yeah! and the "pain" of the waiting game....*gosh*
so doc said he will do a Vaginal Examination..VE la tu...*argh* The first time i did was when i had my Braxton Hick and it was done by a female doctor...yikes!! paiseh leeerr...

But it went well, Doc told hub to stand beside me & to hold my hand for support..*chuckles* support?? malu ade la..hhaha!! ha! susah nak explain on how i tried to be muka tebal when he showed me how to position myself...wakakaka!! hub was smiling away jer..

he applied the cool, ermm...cold thingy over there down south and seluk..hahaha!! But frankly, compared to the female doc, my male gynae was much much better!! very gentle n full of respect....

And he commented, " very good!! soft already and dilated around 2cm..." as his voice trailed off, my shyness disappeared...!

BECAUSE....

he said, i can even be admitted by midnite to wait, or rather be induce for labor!! what??!!!

me & hub was doubly shocked, but hub then recovered from it and was damn bloody happy!! he agreed but i disagreed..maybe i was suffering from the childbirth jitters...the mixed feeling etc..

so doc gave another choice to wait till Monday...which i agreed much to hub dismay as he said he was anxious to cradle his own son in his arms...

we left the clinic and discussed further on whether to change my mind.. but we settled with my decision la..but if Baby Ryan chooses to pop out earlier than Monday then ok jugak..else we see how on Monday..

truth is...i fear the tot of it all...the pain, the needles, etc...haiz!!

but deep down in my heart, i cant wait to have him in my arms too...

hmmmmmmmmmm.....................

Baby R quick come out!! Baby Hilmi is waiting for youuuuuuu......holding the hp to wait for the good news....

ok hub...Insyallah next week, you will be holding your own...aww!! touching...

ok la..nak pi main game...btw i m now on break..werk no more!!! wee hee!! clearing my PH leaves first...

still here...

waiting.......................

haha!!

hmm..baby R seems to lurve making us all wait...




i have tons of "how-r-u" messages, asking whether or not i have pop...till i created a grouping on my hp named "baby R" so hubby will not have difficulties scrolling and thinking who to text.


nope..not yet...i tot baby R wanna give some meaning to Labour Day y'dae but no...hehe!!

but well, baby Cot have been assembled successfully n finally by hubby..haha! actuali, we wanted to buy a new one at kiddy palace, then b4 purchasing, the saleman queried on whether we wanna him to demo on how to assemble..so yeah, y not i tot.


makao!! from there, we knew wer we go wrong with the one at home!! so i told him tt i change my mind about buying la..hehe!!


The next day, we returned and bought the mattress, bolster etc...and it's up and ready for baby R now..but in the mean time, someone else is sleeping there..*chuckles* test product first...

nie lum lagik letak tilam etc...

btw, i took Urgent leave today...false alarm..hehe!!


erm, liz told me to do a baby wish-list, which i have yet to cos i myself dunno wat..but can i add a blender?? wakakakakkaka!!!!

baby R... bila la baby nak kuar nie????

dunno how to see the pix?? ok...tilt ur head to the left and see... tts the head, then the eye, ermm eye socket..ala the eyes la..then the nose then the lips etc..

tomorrow another check up..woohoo!! ape la news this time eh...

k la.. till i blog again..

halooo....

i am still here....

Waiting.....

anyway, juz got back from my gynae's visit and goody news is that Baby R has now "engaged"!! which means, he is ready in the gateway of popping out...hehe!!

Gynae said, last 2 weeks, he turned, now he "parked" already...now is to wait.... for the labour pain or the water bag scene...hmm, i intend to work till i juz cant...Insyallah..

it is always a happy moment for us, each time to scan...such a bliss...Allah's Gift and creation...

well..we will just wait & see when Baby R wants to have his birthday then..

as of now, i just cant believe it will be in 9 days time before our life begins another chapter.. with a new member in our family... gosh!! it just felt like yesterday, when i get to know him, my husband...am glad we are appreciating each other n our sweet memories..not forgetting on how we had worked on our differences to make it work..

the song i am playing now..reminds me of our zaman tunang2...*cweet* enjoy!!


btw, me & hubby just had a war with a sesat cicakman!! it now dead!! muahahahhaha!!

haiz...

i read liz's lil wifey bloggie and that reminds me...yes, of my tough, sad & downer days etc.. days when you just listen to all those jiwangz song... when the place you enjoy goin to was the seaside..by the water-breaker down at ECP...

i dun not recall, mayb i had never poured sorrows to others, not even to my besties frens..family.. i am not sure y but i prefer to keep it to myself..not that i dun see the point but it just wont pour out.. i can never spell out wateva bothers my mind..maybe tt is me...

all of them see me always happy and lucky and all..but i believed i had toughed out the bad times too.. which will juz be kept within me..

maybe if i share, if i were to share, to anyone, i think only tears will pour out to paint the whole intensity of the sorrow.. ya..i guess that is why my inner self decided not to share at all... to save all the embarrassing moments..

oh well, i guess for those gals & guys who know me well, perhaps, you may realise la if i look disoriented then i would have something on my mind...

let's just remember me as the joyous carefree gerl..ermm, woman? mother-to-be la insyallah..hehe!!

but for now...lemme be jiwang la ok..

I shall dedicate this song to my late lil sister....