help wanted..... i am in a mess.... *sigh*

i have not done a single thing for ma weddin, tt would be in uhmm, let's see,*count fingers*, oh well minus jan & july tt would equals to....5mths!!! *screams* ma idea of not thinking of e preps is bcos it will get me all excited about marriage!! *gatal* but wen i see all ma other frens so prepared, i went "gosh!"...some even baru tunang, ikat 2 thn, but dah prepare2..but i scared, if plan2, u will expect too much...n u guys noe abt me & ma expectations.

" Shoutout to everybody: IS 5MTHS MORE FAR AWAY OR NOT?? TO BE PRECISE E MTH OF JULY.....somebody answer me...."

well, actuali i lied...i pretty much have done a few stuff BUT do tell me if i miss anything...esp you miss wedding planner *winkz*!!

things to do
1. mak andam - done
2. full deco - done
3. catering - handled by mama & ayah
4. vid & pix - handled by ayah
5. kendarat - handled by mama & ayah
6. bilik pengantin & langsir rumah...suma pasal rumah la - handled by nenek
7. hantarans - *shake head* yanni!!!!!!

so korang tengok ar...yg those biggie2 stuffs i noted oreadi BUT yg small2 things i have absolute no idea!! sirih dara, bunga telur..ermm, ape lagi huh??! Marlina, klu ko ade checklist ke ape pass lah kat aku...*hopeful* else, i wait for mama come back haj next month & surrender...

oh not fergetting...

reception girlies - ifa, liz & aishah ...ma ever beautiful, bestest of best pwens..
"unofficial" miss wedding planner - i shall not name her yet until she cnfm over lunch/dinner @ swensens...*surprise*

dah dgr kan rintihan aku...so "tolong rini....bantu rini..." *cheeky laugh* nanti aku banja korang makan nasi minyak ar... ok per...

yanni : sat nie ko free tak?? after 3 gitu... reply asap...not shoppin but, hmm aderla... nanti aku banja ko swensens...oops!!
eddy: can help me design invites?

nites suma!! me goin under blanket...later must wake up @ 8.30am !!!!hmm...wait, i tink i gotta fry some fries 1st...HUNGRY!!!

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha semua!!!!!! well, let see wat i did today ya...

I woke up @ 7am and kemas2...nasib jiran sebelah kasi nasi minyak, sambal gorens, ayam masak merah etc...bleh lah hidang kat zali, ayah & helmi wen he comes later lepas sembahyang raye...siap2 suma, wow! i feel so womanly...selalu tau siap diri SENDIRI jer..nie nak kene siap kan satu rumah..it wuz reali an experience...

hmm, i not sure why i lept dozing off wen we kuar gi umah nenek, umah emi, umah nenek jurong. hehe! best thing, i doze off while reading new paper @ helmi hse!!! haha!! lepak sak...another funny thing, mak emi called me to the kitchen. i went, sekali she ask me to anuh bontot taugeh!! hehe, suddenly ma otak blank. "matila aku" den i ask, " cik, sori eh, tapi camner nak anuh bontot dia?" wakakaka!! helmi ketawa kan me from e living room, apparent, he must have been listening hard, cos he knew i not housewerk, READ:especially COOKING, kinda person..haha!! paiseh sial...but mak dia pon ketawa jer..NASIB! oso, i was assigned e task to hidangkan meja, utk makcik helmi yg dtg. on e menu was lontong soto or wateva u call tt. guess way?? i put everythin on e table BUT e soto..haha!! everybody was tryin to find was wuz missin till they start to tuck in..ahh, then they found out wat wuz it!!

ard 10am: helmi reach ma home, we 1 famili, minus mama(haj) & arwah shasa.
ard 10.30-11:antar ayah & zali gi umah bik ayu, nenek all der.
11-1pm: @ helmi's plc wer all e taugeh & MIA dish thingy happen. *mama called!!*
by 1.15pm:reach bik ayu hse to join ayah, zali & everybody...
@2.30 gitu: me & emi gi amik daging from his dad with ayah & zali in tow..den go nenek jurong hse.
By 3+ gitu: @ nenek jurong hse, play with baby. sempat kiter tdo.
@ 5 gitu: gi pusara shasa..*sad* zali wuz e driver der oni.as alwaes.
by 6pm: reached emi hse again..daddy & zali took e car home..
@ 8pm: emi send me back in his daddy's car...

@ home, lepas wash up, i can NEVER hv ma eyes open..goners all e tv shows! @ 2am, i woke up thinking its oreadi like tengah hari ker late morning, was about to go mandi wen zali asked "nak gi maner?!" haha...ngigau ar..

cant sleep, i wen to MSN, chatted wit u liz, read up about paranormal ; big foot, mermaid, ghost. liza got scare so she decide to link n onli read in e dae..SCARYCAT!! i tempted her over e webcam with ma fries!! haha...she was subdued, SHE ATE, despite saying, "aku on diet la" hee..well, better keep ur promise, u gotta fast tomorrow...ok?

zali & his fren, is, got bored & they did face painting haha!! cool, look at e pix. but later they wash off, takut roh tak masuk badan balik!! den masak lagi...mkn. tgh duk2, terperasan yg cat duk bawah topi, tido...cute...hehe!! now they having like "slumber nite" tok2 oni...haha!! very e girl2..
hmm, i better turn in now...gotta werk 3pm later.

here i present and "incomplete" family portrait....oh well, yup, that's syamimi who is in the pix with us....

Let me introduce her. Her name is Syamimi, i call her shasa...she msg me a few months after arwah shasa passed away on Frenster...shocked tt she look like ma late sis*refer to inset pix of her* , i told ma parents about in the next morning...they talked to her n met... sad tt in a glimpse, she reminds us of arwah Shasa...since then she call ma parents mama & ayah, the way arwah shasa used to...

Syamimi WILL nvr replace Shasa...i noe tt...but sometimes you juz need to lie to yourself of e truth, e painful reality tt hurts....however, we all noe tt @ e end of the dae, we will have to accept e fact tt arwah Shasa will nvr be here anymore...though i alwaes wish hard tt i would "wake up" one dae with her still sleepin beside me and tt all dis was a "freaking nightmare".

Yesterday, at 12noon ma cat died peacefully...yup Ica, its e cat tt got kicked on the stomach...*sad* It died while lying beside An, ma neighboour in the living room. They buried it at kampung wak hasan tau...*siap wrap ngan kain putih!!* And yes, i cried...

Anyway, it rained juz now wen i wuz supposed to meet helmi at ritz..*shucks* plan changed and he came over to drive daddy's car instead of riding...we wen mkn @ 924, shopping @ suntec, rounding2 while talking2, singing2 in the car...nothin much accomplished todae beside puchasing his Levis jeans...wanted to get his platinum wedding band*pls refer prev post* but, nothin appeal to him yet...its ok, lagi bnyk mase...oh btw, helmi bought me a baju kurung...anggun!! hmm...tts pretty much all tt we did.. well, i guess, wen you love somebody, juz bein together is enuff..no need for a full day itineary....anybody beg to differ?

Yanni, aku tk lupa lah....topless 4 ke 5 sekali...bile ko free?? ko yg bz selalu, bih ckp aku... *roll eyes* hehe!!

Good morning frens.....

I m so in love..not tt i have not been, but i reali feel tt I AM BEING LOVED....by my ever so lovely fiance, Helmi. Those who know me, i never ever gave 100% to ANYONE. i alwaes nid tt at least 20% off e 100% for me to bounce back in case IT fails...i never ever wanna find myself HOPELESSLY in love. NEVER... but now, i think i m reali floating on CLOUD NINE...*goodness*

Helmi was driving me to werk and we engaged in a little discussion. Whilst talking about wat to get for our hantaran gifts exchange, i was so touched wen helmi said tt he wouldn't mind if i have a wedding band(ring) for him.

Rini: reali? u would wear a ring? i mean, i didnt think you wld.*obviously surprised* (he doesnt wear accessories, except 4 e bracelet i gave him.)
Helmi: of course i dun mind syg...by wearing the ring, pple will noe tt i m married! *chuckles* n dun forget to engrave our name....
Rini: *blush*

" Ya ALLAH!!! i thank you for allowing me to experience this beautiful feeling...U had made me felt the worst of all feelings wen U took Arwah Shasa away from all of us, but U didnt forget to create happiness too..sorry tt i ever felt tt U were never fair, and cruel to have e existence of a fate sooo painful.."

Bear wit me ya!! i noe i m making some of you puke in disgust...hehe!! love? wat is it? haha!! tts history... i believe in love now!!! LOVE!! i need LOVE!!! haha!! n i need you darling...i cannot imagine life w/out u...

u beared with me, wen i kept calling Man's name instead of yours *mase baru bercinta*.
u smiled wen i said i dun believe in love.
u accepted me not being in any way a lady should be.
u not only love me, u love my family all the same.
u showed me the rights of way but nvr critised ma wrongs.

" 4yrs down e road now...n i m giving you ma full 100% dear.... I LOVE YOU!! countin down to our BIG day dear...."

Gosh...its had been a hectic time for me without mama dearest...i hope ur well over in Mekah...neway, juz saw e hotel collapse in mekah news!! i hope mama not affected. tts to those who sms me in concern..though i have no news of her yet, i pray she is fine. aiseyman..e radio is playing lagu raya mamat "kupohon restu ayah dan bonda"..pedih pedih ar.... The 1st photo here was nicely taken at Rahmat's werkplace...some pub-cum-restaurant. though i was under-dressed, he had no qualms!! tankiu 4 everything rahmat!!

5th of January, me, liza, aishah together with Ifa, we went to Breeks @ taka to celebrate her bdae(ifa)..well, actuali i treated them all.
Aishah, for teaching ma bro wen he was taking his "n" levels..apparently, from a failure in maths, zali actuali passed it n in an amazing fact, HE PASSED ALL SUBJECTS..haha!!
i love you!!





Ifa, cos she was the BIRTHDAE gal!!! hepi 24th bdae gerl... we will be married happily dis year(hmm, doesnt sound rite),u to darlin syah n me to helmi. Insyallah.. lets get to e planning plan gerl!! ermm, planning plan? aper2 jer aku tau... fa, thanks for the redbull tshirt & e beautiful bag... i love u!!




Liza, it was a belated bdae treat...she TURNED 26 on dec 24..haha!! 4yrs to e big 30 liz!!! neway, congrats on e losin of 5kg, u look great!! n oso Hakim, liz hubby, its his be-early bdae treat... bdae is dis sat...haha!! n u Sarah, ur in e package!!! Love you guys!!

there u go, i have presented e best gerls i can ever ask for in ma life!! those who have been stickin like glue from e bestest time to the times wen i m down & out... n aku ingat ape korang janji!!! be there 3hari 3mlm utk aku kahwin!!! *evil laugh*


enjoy e pixs...well, i wont be bloggin 4 a moment...its hard to juggle as a MoTHER, DAUGHTER, SISTER & TUNANG at e same time...house chore to do, mouth to be feed...well, daddy werk mah..jaga zali..etc...help me!! oh thanks dear, u hv been ard wenever i needed you...n lookin forward to e "housepainting day" with daddy n zali together wit u... love u muack!!! *sob* radio nie...lagu raya lak!!

mama, miss u!