its been a hectic dae 4 me...

y'dae, thursdae, despite e fearful thinking of goin in JB, i eventually relent and off we breeze into JB...hmm, not too bad actually...well, maybe wat helmi says is true, pple are taking advantage of e news report of wateva tt happen & create bogus smses to further intensify e already tense situation there. By creating fear in the timid hearts of tame s'poreans, e problem to endless long Qs into Jb & out would be solved. Incredible!! Warning: this is juz an assumption!!! entering JB is STILL @ your own risk.. dis pix wuz wen helmi had his biggest bike, Yikes badan pon terjadi hunky!!

Today, e 31st of Dec, i m werking 3-1am...i m counting down e ritz way!! *sobz* its ok, darling helmi will be ard too... lets usher in the new year without forgetting our past mistakes, yeah..but dun dwell on it, to make sure its not repeated again to create sorrows or regret...yes, we move on but dun 4get those who are gone... lets make our life more enlighten, smile more..hehe! uh huh..i noe easier said than done. its ok..lets try..

all rooms division leaders gonna be around to assist ushering the new year with e luxuries crowd....yippee!! i simply lurves wen we all werk together professionally!!

enjoy ur day peeps...miz ya all!!! next yr, wic is starting from tmr...busy, busy!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL MA FRENS.................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yanni, the bracelet i'v got... --------------------------------------------------->

i tied ma hair in a different style todae,for werk, using wax & to ma utter surprise, wen i let it go at home(read:after ard more den 12hrs) it bloom to a beautiful curls...aaaaah! noice!! mama even tot i went to hv it done @ saloon...heheheheheeh!!

i went shopping..yes, again

1.maya's gift
2.ma beg
3.helmi's toiletries
4.mama's hp accesories(had it personalised 4 her)
5.ma toiletries
6.groceries(cornflakes, bottles of milks, packets of chicken nugget)

well, at least dis shopping is not so self-centred, so i m not sentenced to guiltiness. haah!! i wanna bring helmi shoppin tomorrow b4 werk...ish, bile nak beli "gifts" eh?? hmm...k lah post new year sale ar...*tsk*

well gtg...wanna hv ma beauty sleep!!!!!!!

Wooo..yeah!!!i did it!! i did it!! i cleaned up ma almari liao.....
hmm, well instead of cleaning out, i think, i oni sort of like re-arrange ma clothes jer. Wakakaka......... well, i think i am a sentimental person, to me all tt belongs to be will alwaes be..forever...alallllalalala...rearrange all ma photo albums....

One thing i ALWAES hate is, i will alwaes get e flu, sneexing bug whenever i do spring cleaning...all e time...mayb i m not destined to be doin housewerk..*chuckles* sorry darling, u gotta engaged a maid 4 me..ahakz!!

I gotta take a bath again so i will look fresh wen helmi comes by later after werk. goin to Johor.hmm, seram nak masuk Johor wit all e news reports but...tawakal jer ar...

Phew...today have been hell of a dae...*shake head*. suppose to be on 2nd rest day but was called back to werk. no prob cos no plan. end werk @ 3pm.Go shoppin @ marina wit Azza.waited for Ice to end shift @ 7pm.then go orchard.shop again.*haiz*den we makan @ Esteler 77 *read:highly recommended*. yadadadaddaad....den i made ma way back to Ritz to wait for helmi end shift @ 12am.we played arcade @ marina south n mkn(again!!) @ jln kayu. the shitiest thing tt could happen was...........i didnt bring ma trusty camcorder to record such an eventful dae!! *sigh*

Sadness

E cute cat tt is alwaes outside ma house has been taken away by e SPCA. *sob* alwaes wen u have grown affection towards anything, it has to go. e feeling of losing someone tt u loved is undescribable(even if its a cat).wen they are gone, we will start sayin, i shld hv done this, that.if only u knew.bt e ideology here is, u will never ever know.so treasure ur loved ones since we believe tt LIFE IS NEVER FAIR.

Ambitious

Since i werk on ma off day, i m gettin it back now. so....it spring cleaning time 4 me. i must force maself this time round to wake up & reali do this.i have been putting this off 4 far too long, n i since i have been inputting more, n i reali mean MORE, new clothings, i MUST clear off those tt can be classified as "old" but still useable n "auction" it off to ma adik2 sedare. passed-downs are handy to them who are not earnin yet i guess...I CAN DO THIS!! *duh, its 4.21am now yet still nt sleepin, hehe*

Fickle

Next yr is e year most of ma frens will get married.Man-january, Azreen-february, Azhar-March, Marlina-April....keep it coming guys!! i m so excited abt this marriage thingy.to be wit e one u loved, spending e remaining life wit them.sweet rite?? then again, i fear of it. Marriage vows.Its a big thing.Am i capable of being a wife?a daughter-in-law? ya..ya..i noe u guys gonna say "duh!"...but hey, its juz a feeling aite...*roll eyes* i m juz so used to bein daddy's & mummy's gerl, tts all.*grin* hope wit e blessing of our parents, we can prevail on together thru all obstacles, AMIN...*its gonna b a big step 4ward*

nanny is endin her story here. i hope i didnt bore anybody. oh wait a minute,in e 1st place,i m not obligated to entertain anybody wat.*chuckles*...so no apologies if i had put u to sleep literally..*evil laugh*

* ARGH *
oh no....nauseous AGAIN....took e cab as it wuz raining & dear Audrey got lazy...

took pix 4 1/3 of e journey and walaaa!! i felt as if i m in a boat to nowhere...*bleukz*

chatted e whole nite wit feelin-diva Yanni, topic from XX to resolutions, to weddings...*ok shut up Yanni!! grrrr* haha!! remember i have appointed you ma unofficial wedding planner & mak andam touch up....hehe!! so better do a ggod job!! nanti aku kasi ko tiket duk kat kepak kapalterbang ikut aku gi honeymoon!! nak?? * evil laugh*

e sweetest thing tt happened last nite was Doug went on Rooms channel at e strike of Midnite wishing everybody merry xmas...it felt so warm, n everybody wuz like happily respondin to Doug spontaneously...it was very ho-ho-ho!! *chuckles*

however, e tons of ridiculous, unbelievable, pain-in e neck, repetative requests from all e locals seems too be overwhelming. they juz needed extras & more of EVERYTHING, visibily everything!! well, tt did not spoil ma mood though i felt teeny, weeny pissed. tts life rite??

ALERT:
its ma off dae todae, AND I HAVE NOTHING PLANNED!!! argh....tomorrow i m off too... again, this is life. NEVER FAIR. wen u have all e time in e world, no plans seem to be happening. wen u are hard working your butt, alot of plans surface from all ur frens in e world. oh well, mayb again ders good in it. maybe God does tt so tt we can reali rest on our OFF days & party real hard wen ur oreadi out there. hmm... gets me thinking now. yanni, wat u think??

well, if u guys nid anybody to irritate u todae for FREE, dun be shy. juz msg me, call me, shout @ me, knock ma door, wateva....i m free!!!! helmi is werkin so i m free till midnite todae & tmr.

hey, do buzz me! muaahahhahahahaha!!!

p.s: yanni, look @ ma pix.. double chin dah nak form..TIDAK!!!!

*feelin nauseous*

ooh...wait a minute. its not wat u think...haha!! its all thanx to the taxi ride from Ritz to Yishun...Gosh!! addin to more misery, e uncle was goin on & on blabberring.....

werk was fine, reali manageable tt i could handover n leave right on e dot wen the clock strikes 7. all nite thinking on ma resolutions & stuffs i need to settle...well, i guess, it wldn't be much of a resolution. more to a "to-do" list that i need to create...hmm lets see, for now..all tt nid 2 b done in e next 6mths. (!!)

1. go kursus rumahtangga (gosh, i reali 1 2 get over wit tt)
2. find a house tt me & helmi can call HOME.
3. register our marriage (insyAllah)
4. buy gifts for hantaran(yanni,help me!)
5. think of names of e guest list (though i hv photographic memori, i tend to forget names...tt explains e ample time i nid)

4 now, i guess tt hits ma top 5 list...frens' help wld be so appreciated. Kuzzins, well, u guys hv no route of escape though..haha!! oh ya...continue saving ma $$ for honeymoon in Disneyland wit en-route to London to see Lisa!!!wee...i hope tt can b fulfill!!! *closes eyes & wish*

then insyAllah after kahwin, i wanna be a good wife to ma to-be-hubby, make him hepi etc. hehe!! mentel aku...

Yanni: 1stly, i CANNOT taggy in ur blog...2ndly, i still remember our swensens ya!! 3thly, hmmm actuali, takde pape ar... *shy*

see ya all.me gonna fly to dreamland 4 now.its 0900hrs now, 8hrs later @ 1700hrs, i will logged in MSN.. *muacks*

whew... been a long dae.but i enjoyed every sec of it...1stly, i woke up late, suppose to attend e dept xmas party but heck, i woke up at 4.04 to be exact. 6 missed calls on ma hp n tons of wer-r-u msges...gee, sorry guys!! neway, helmi pick me up at 5.30 n we went shoppin. I bought ,yet, another top from U2. *guilty* helmi bought 2 ties for yusry exchg gifts.while paying 4 it, e lady in front of us reali irked us.

irrating customer: wers your in charge?
surprise cashier: sorry?
IC: i wan to complain.
SC: i will nid to get ma supervisor
IC: ya quick. i reali wan to complain. *made stoopid face*

oh ok. it doesnt sound tt bad i noe. but u should be der n see her muka-nak-kene-sepak face!! so eksyen...hello!! pls remember almost 100% of e werking peeps get bonus @ dis time ok, not only u...ade $$ lebih sikit nak complain. n e best thing was, its due to bra takde size..#2!8... u mean by complainin, a size of her could be whip out?? DUH!! people..people...

neway, den meet mama, ayah & zali at Al-Ameen for dinner.den go shoppin AGAIN. after tt, we sent mama & ayah home, me, zali & helmi took over e car and go for supper @ Lau Pa Sat. makao!! tak kenyang2 seh. brought along zali fren, zizie & ma adik sedara Maya. *kewl, me & maya wore pink..haaha!!*

oh ya, i got ma xmas gift...a necklace wit ma initial "r" n bling2 lined e word. wow!! lookin @ it reminds me, it looked like e one somebody wore...*yanni!! its u!!* LOL. looks like i can add tt 2 our similarities list...ho, ho, ho!!

btw, visited shasa cemetery dis morning...

immortal

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

shopping

guilty.so very guilty.i have done you wrong dear.i have sinned.too much.... i am sorry..

I HAVE BEEN SHOPPING!!!!! *yikes*

-wat i have bought-

1. 5 tops from U2
2. a pant from ebase
3. a pair of working court shoe *with high stiletto*
4. a pair of sandal/slippers
5. accessories.

well ya, i noe its not tt much but for some1 who is saving up $$$$ for her wedding its like WOAH!!

hmm, takpe... *self-consoling* sekali sekala...

a dae at e salon..

couldnt sleep last nite but as usually i feel asleep at e last hour & taddaaaa.... i woke up in a shock to know tt it's oreadi 555am!!! made a hustle to e bathroom, damn, helmi got here e moment i step out of e bathroom..such rotten luck, well lucky he wuz not angry..*thanx sweety*
made it to werk by 6.30am..kewl huh...went to do all e checks, yadadadadadad..... went to 7-11 to buy breakfast...hmmm weird but true, i never felt sleepy, not e least. probably thanxs to e pile of werk tt needed ma IMMEDIATE attention...
neway, end werk @ 3, send helmi off as he is goin fishing wit ma bro while i will be shoppin wit Ice. waited for Ice to finish her shift @ 7, n we left right on mark!! Instead of shopping, we decided on some pampering...we went to e salon to cut hair...wat a pleasure!!! excelante...
den we made our way to orchard n ate @ mcD shaw towers. ade la jugak cuci mate & i bump into lotsa of old frens..
after eating, daddy fetched me & we send Ice home..tomorrow, we are reali shopping after werk!!! hhehehehe...

btw, i m missing chatting with some1 in MSN...hmmm malu lah nak ckp sape..hehehe

assalamualaikum,
Rini...zzz sleepin liao, bro & helmi still out der!!

hmmm

juz watched "SEMBILU 2005"...haiz, remind me of my past relationship with ma late lil sis, Shasa. Maria mariana, Sembilu...semua touched ma hearts.. so can i say its a norm 4 e elder to be fierce to e younger sis..well, tts wat e film seem to imply. i can feel i had no mercy to wat pple feel cos all i wanted was the best for them. mayb...mayb, e way i approached seem to strong. well i m not e drama mama type i guess.. juz too straight forward.

but well, i guess later in e life u would u'stand y i was & m still like tt. but for now, i think u WOULD HV KNOWN oreadi.. i u guys noe wat i mean.

sorry i m rambling..

good news...

received a good news. but dis is supposed to STILL be under wrap. ish!! but i can feel tt i would reali end up squintin out details to juz anybody. anybody. now. whoever calls me...opps!! i 4get its 2.56am oreadi...argh!! god help me, keep this info safe n well in me..hahahahhaa!!! clue: yanni, ur swensen coming!! hmm no, not abt bonus...hehe!! kip on guessing...hate it?? i do too...but too bad... i promised!!! *chuckles*

Mohd Norhelmi Abd Rahman, tunangku

dear,
knowing you was like a light at e end of a dark tunnel
ending e misery of a long, directionless path...

dear,
being with you is heaven
enuff is 1 word i will say never

no werds cn describe wat i reali feel for you. but i believe its e real thing.

LOVE.

yes, i guess it is.

thanx dear 4 ur undying love.

i love u too.

rinielisha.

Serangoon's Ayam

hmm...its been 3 daes in a row tt we lepak @ tt plc in Serangoon for tt superduperilicious fried chicken...made me & helmi crave for it everynyte after werk...hehehhehhe!!!we joked tt mayb e mamak had werk 4 KFC b4 tts y e chicken is like KFC, in fact it is better...wat a laugh!!

ma werk load nvr seem to ease..haiz!! stress...stress..stress...but wit e fact tt AWS is coming, ade la sikit semangat nak werk...hmm, i have yet to prepare details of next week mtg..venue, date & time...

Boss asking 4 details liao, shit!

thou shall nvr feel

it seems that i have been losing ma night sleep, not tt i dun wanna sleep, i cant sleep..i wonder y.

werk have been bz dis daes approaching year end, n i cant believe i have pending invoice dated yr 2004..shucks!! maner aku nak korek info... haiz... but hell, AWS will be credited on the 17th of Dec..woohoo!! shopping anyone?? Yanni, bile nak aku banja Swensen..? hehehe

i better get some sleep nw else i will doze off at werk n tt "kak Pah" will scream @ me...

Good nites frens, miz u all

carries a meaning to wat i feel....

juz me, that pple see....but not e inner me tt u can nvr seek...

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sewaktu dulu...
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menjadikan hidup tak sehaluan
jalan akhirnya
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Reasons i left u...

Jenuh aku mendengar
Manisnya kata cinta
Lebih baik sendiri
Bukannya sekali
Seringku mencoba
Namun kugagal lagi
Mungkin nasib ini
Suratan tanganku
Harus tabah menjalani

Jauh sudah langkahku
Menyusuri hidupku
Yang penuh tanda tanya
Kadang hati bimbang
Menentukan sikapku
Tiada tempat mengadu

Hanya iman di dada
Yang membuatku mampu
Slalu tabah menjalani

Malam malam aku sendiri
Tanpa cintamu lagi
Hanya satu keyakinanku
Bintang kan bersinar
Menerpa hidupku
Bahagia kan datang

.:: i guess bahagia reali came...Helmi gave me the real happiness & i believed urs came too::.

i juz feel i nid to be clean with it once and for all...opinions are welcome but consolations are not requested...i m NOT asking for pple to be sorry....wat i feel is only human & tts bout it, i know i have the best in life now with my ever dearest...n i can never ask for more...stop coming to me and saying words to "console" me...cos i m not feeling wat u guys feel i do about tt wedding...

wish you all the best in married life & be happy with her...

Fadzlynah: please...stop thinking that i m gonna still yearn to be with him....he is yours n i respect that, as much as i DEMAND others to respect that Helmi is only mine....hehe!! i hope we can be friends though i can u'stand if you dun feel like it...but pls think about wat i said...i mean it...

Hari Pernikahanmu...

sulaiman idrus....

entered ma life wen i wuz still in Sec sch right thru werking life at ritz, sailing thru his ITE & NS life...up & downs, happy & sad, breaks & patch ups, laughter & tears....we knew it wasn't puppy love, yet for it to last it will nvr, with e constants squabble over little things & no much of a consent from Mama. no blessing i guess..

well, i wuz borned to not regret over things & happenings no matter how tragic but i do get sore over it..BUT NOT REGRET, never....things happen for a reason no matter wat...

i knew for a reason i had to end this love-hate relationship of ours. its nvr meant to be and can nvr be. u deserve someone better though u alwaes say i m the best, e one u nid..

wit e wedding invitation, u said "thanks" for all i did, for you to be a better man. BUt i would like to say thanks too, wit due respect to our history, i dun wish for it to happen ever again...thru mistakes, pple learn. n i m confidently saying, I HAVE LEARN...n so have u i guess....

i m not the RINI u once knew 9yrs ago....n the onli reason i feel sad wen i received e card is cos i realised how bad i was n how badly u were treated...*but u brought it on 1st* Maybe u should say thanks to Lily too..haha!! she would be happy....

Sorry is ma last werd to u....n thanks 2 our history, i m a better person to ma lovely fiance helmi...wish u happiness wit her....cos i m reali happy wit him...

Sorry i will not attend the wedding.....

Rini

hepi b'dae to u....shasa

todae marks your would-be 19th b'dae if ur still happily alive.... i took the day off which i nvr did before it all happened...*dis is human i guess* to onli appreciate once gone...

i wish you happiness wherever u are....
i wish you knew how much u are missed....

ma hearts still bleeds....

lazy me...

hmmm....i lied wen i saw i would update regularly...true fact is i m becoming lazy.... :(

well, yanni & me met for dinner at CWP juz last sundae...cool!!! but me having ulcer, tak lah sebecok slalu..amik gmbar pon tak menjadi2...knape ngak nye....camera dia malu ngak nye... hahaha.. neway thans 4 e treat yanni...mine will be at swensens...

i m back...

its been a lonnngggg time since i posted...well i have been having a lot of stupid prob accessin thru ma own blog, can u believe it?? thanks to yanni, i decided to fix it n here i m.... :)

however, for e period of absense, pls go to rinielisha.multiply.com to fill u guys in...

k lah...i m at werk so not much flexibilty to rattle...

yanni, thanks for e push!!!

here is maself to u.. *peace 4 now *
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tsk..tsk..
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~~ racer of my heart ~~
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~~ i m so protected ~~
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a fren of us...Zul...we are on highway to nowhere,....wakakaka!!
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...juz me getin out of dark and sad past...i m still trying..
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i m so confuse....miss u.. :(
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~~ enjoyin @ nite as usual ~~
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ma room in genting...3837...
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tryin to look adult...wateva...
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as usual...... :)
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...me & helmi naik Flume Ride @ genting..
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~~me with helmi lil sis~~
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~~ me wit Helmi Sista~~
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Kiter NyE WeDdinG....cOmING sOoOOoonnnn....

I juz sign with this bridal y'day...beshnye!!! hehe...went to the expo with helmi & he asked me to sign up!! hehe.. dia kater kene plan cepat2..heeh..beshla!! 14 mths to go...

remind you of somebody??? Well she added me in her friendster and i wuz SO SHOCKED when i saw all her pix....well....
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Step feeling....On a bridge..
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opps!!
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ride back home!
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zali a.k.a babyElmo posing in the forestation!
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Dah penat cycle...cycle...uphill....downhillll.....
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