Missing In Action

Gone are the days wen an update a day is the minimum..haha!!

Its simply near to almost impossible for me to sit down and blog down anything..

At werk, there's meetings to sit in, deadlines to meet, operations planning to do..

And now, I have roster to plan...

pfft!

And wen its busy with meetings, it's almost back to back, 1 after the other...kenapa la kenapa..wat more with now, my direct boss has declared abt his resignation, so bertambah la keje aku dgn segala take overs...

haiz...but i still have my wonderful lunch breaks..to gossip, hehe! and mini shoping at Marina Square..

so here i am declaring that i will be temporarily out of these blog-sphere..

ala kejap jer..hehe!

Anyway, i will still updates la once in awhile..hokay!

Ryan is doing so well, alhamdullilah..and though i am busy nowadays, we still have great family outings and time together..

I so love my baby ryan, my hub & my life...haha!! pe jer..

kk la.. gtg!

adios amigos berambus..

mak, kental sak!

TROJAN HORSE!!!

argh...i got virus-ed!!

shit!! I accepted afile over MSN by mistake

i have done wat i should...

a clean up..

in the hope to safe all my files...

but not sure if this is enuff..

boo hoo!!

another got any tips??

please...please..share with me..

email me ok..

please..................

before i was a MOM

Before I was a Mom

I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.

I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.

I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom - I had never been puked on.

Pooped on.

Chewed on.

Peed on.

I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.

I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom

I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests.

Or give shots.

I never looked into teary eyes and cried.

I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.

I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom

I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to

put them down.

I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I

couldn't stop the hurt.

I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.

I never knew that I could love someone so much.

I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom -

I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.

I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.

I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.

I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so

important and happy.

Before I was a Mom -

I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every

10 minutes to make sure all was okay.

I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache,

the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom.

end of day...

never have i feel the need to rush home after werk..

i mean like reali rush home...

so my daily routine is to werk in the morning and off back home in the evening..

Shower and wait for ryan to be sent over by my in-laws, together wit my dinner..alhamdullilah, my in-laws very the u'standing.. hehe!!

though tired from werk, i am never out of energy to play2 with ryan..

and each day..

i look forward for the end of the day..

to juz look at him..

and as i did juz now..

i like macam cant believe that i AM looking at my son.., my sleeping son..lol!

mepek kan!

anyway, this is ryan waiting to be send to his nenek house this morning...

k la..

nak gi siap2 to watch PRISONBREAK!!

yahoo!

waiting...

hmm, i am waiting for my in-laws to send ryan back home...

hehe!!

well, aku baru balik werk nie..so they told me no need susah2 and they can send ryan over instead of me fetching him..

Alhamdullilah..

Hub werk ptg..jap agi balik la tu..tadi i left home, hub & ryan still sleeping..kiss both goodbye & left..mcm tute gitu they slept together...

awe...my babies!!!

juz now, balik with Nirna..hmm, mcm2 story2, dirty laundry..haha!!

nie antara kiter la ye..

maner tau fizah start werk nantim rupanya dia pun sekaki ngan kiter na..

kira ok la tu eh..

hehe..

buat yg tak faham..

faham2 jer kan la yee...

nie entry yang sungguh tak bermakna..

argh......

i hate the morning rush..

i hate the kekecohan pagi2 in the train...

That's y u see me early..early in the morning to avoid them all...

but still...haiz..

1 morning i ter-doze off in the train..shiok get seat mah..

until 1 bloody mangkuk tingkat spoke sooooo loud, i mean like realy2 loud!!

he was practically shouting on the phone...

but to him tt's his normal tone, it seems..

makao!!

Yang, go get ur bike back...

Give me the car!!!

hehe!! aku scare to drive sebenarnye..tt's y even though i had passed all my test and got my PDL and all.. i didnt go for the block of driving session tt ayah paid for oreadi the other time wen i turned 18, juz simply cos i was scared to be on the road..haha!! lepak kan..

so i guess, now i juz hv to retake all over again...and hit the road!!

hmm, but u hv to escort me on the road la dear on your bike...keke!!

bleh gitu?

well...

here..my tons of werk..in the disguise of files..

1st day of werk!!

started my day by snoozing my alarm which was set to Ryan's recorded crying voice...

After much snoozing, i got up and took my warm shower..

All the stuffs had been packed last night..

So it didnt take long for us to make our way out to my in-law's homey..

Sleeping Ryan...

Carried by Ayah...

Still asleep in the car...

And still sleeping wen we dropped him..then hubz send me to werk..

My new desk..

i sungguh the suka..

gets the natural light...

can see & hear ambulance..haha!!

stress jer tgk luar..

after 8 hours plus of clearing tons of emails..and i reali meant tons!! 1000 plus..

haiz ape guna ade Out Of Office tah..hmm..

I packed my stuffs to balik as hubz was fetching..

time check was...

hehe!! along the way..i was happily snapping away pix of the lovely sky... it was so gorgeous... ok... makan-ed first at my in-laws..and left for home... here is RYAN..MY BOY!!
On another note, and i juz loves this pix wic i took of him bathing, the other day.. he lurves... water... haha!! ok la..gtg and play2 with my bucuk2!! overall, it was great to be back at werk.. but i still think of Ryan back home..

apple of our eyes..

hmm, i juz loves watching ryan in slumberland...

so mesmerizing...

mama sayang Ryan la!!

muacks...

eleh..muka takya mentel pe ryan...keke!

Fever.....

Ryan had his 5-in-1 jab today..

well..aku tak faham sangat la ape the normal free one la, the 5-in-1 la, the 6-in-1 la.. so i juz took the 5-in-1...bleh gitu?

to begin with, he nanak bangun so i had to wake him up at 9.45am to go to the poly for the jab..ryan kopet, pasal tak mandi..hahhaha!!

blah2..jab..uwek!!!!

then see doc for his 3mths check..alhamdullilah, he is progressing extremely well..especially attentive & responsive..

ok well, then biase jugak go to my in-laws to lunch.

Ryan fell asleep so had to wait for him to wake up at 3pm b4 proceeding to CWP then to KKH..

sungguh tak sabar nak see Fizah's baby...kekeke!!

i shall reserve the exclusivity of her baby pix & name for her ok..i believe she will update soon..klu dia tk malas la..

blah..blah..blah..sempat debate ngan miss-i-know-it-all lagik..haha!! some1 who came along while we were there..

then balik pi lagik umah in-laws aku for dinner..takle harap nye org! keke..

pastu balik..

and know Ryan has developed fever!!

alahai, it is expected according to the doc & nurse for this jab..

adoi!

but i got myself prepared with the syringe so tt i can "tranport" or "transfer" the medicine into his mouth witout any mess..

and oso a cool pack for his forehead..

though he is sick, still nak smile2 wen i wanna take his pix..

so wit this, i will only hv time to upload pix wen he get better ok..

THREE

My boy turns 3 today...

no no not 3years but 3 months..haha!!

Yippee!!

And for a 3 month-old, he has..

1. oversized the new born diapers
2. oversized the S-size diapers
3. the ever burning desire to try and sit..must get the bumbo liao
4. "disappearing" acts from his sleeping place, tt i have to put the "guarding" pillows all around him..
5. can laugh heartily, coo-ing at all strangers, smile at anybody who looks in the pram at him, even strangers, each time we are out to the mall or elsewer..

and many more...

we sort of hv a "bday" celebration for ryan ydae at AMK park mcd..haha!! no la..juz met up jer with liz..

will upload pixs later...stay tune..

cos now i wanna get ready to bring Ryan for his injection..ohhh!! poor boy!

and to all who knows fizah, fizrif or ape lagi nick dia, please pray for her safe delivery of her 1st child.. amin..

Weddings..weddings..weddings...I MISS MINE!!!

haha.. my header says it all..

my weekend was spent attending weddings...oh i juz lurves weddings..

the feel is erm..so touching..

i remember, even as wen i used to werk as PT banquet @ westin & ritz, my eyes always never failed to well up whenever the bride & groom of the day have their march in..

it's juz so feeling..ala susah aku nak explain..so precious, so memorable, so princessy...so worth everything..

and for the many reasons i knew i would cry on mine, i had repeatedly told myself tt i can shed a tear of happiness on others' wedding but not mine..cos i knew if 1 is shed, it will be macam tap bocor!! keke!!

ala aku nie off track lak.. ok ok so the day began with shafiq dropping by to set rambut at my house..ceh! he left his bike over @ our place & tumpang us..

there we met all, zur, fir, shida, khai & wife, and many others who i forgot their name...hahhaha!!

please click here for the MORE pixs..

Wedding weekend..

and as u know, Ryan always hv his afternoon nap rite..so in the midst of org kekecoh..si Ryan nie bleh sleep seslamba2 nye..tido step majok lak tu..see..

But he was reali asleep..and still ngorok wen i pass to hub..

hehe..but after tt he woke up la.. nap jer..then we shot off to another wedding with the rest..

best sungguh meeting old frens..sungguh seronok.com!

balik..Ryan flat lagik...

and while he was at tt, me together with hub & shafiq tried to finish up our Hikmah vcd..lagik 8 disc..phew!

sambil2 aku amik gmbar of the evening sun over my balcony...*chuckles*

tapi VCD tu tetap tak abis..cos tak bleh continue since we are meeting Zul & tony at Jalan Kayu at 9pm...so siap2 kan Ryan and poof!

there u see me, trying to pakai the baby carrier.. not bad jugak la..ingat bleh patah pinggang..cos ryan nie KOOSMANGAT!!! wakakaka!!

balik rite b4 midnight, and me & hub continue the last 3 VCDs...

ended at 2plus..walau eh! the ending is....

FRUSTRATING!!!

wanna know y?

50 cent dulu...

haha!!!

and selalu i will re-watch my wedding vcd kan after every wedding i attended..but this time, i created a mini montag!!

will share wit u guys soon...

and oh, got a beep from Mrs Rif...she will be giving birth anytime soon!!

YIPPEE!!

For my second entry of the day, i shall present u this video..

enjoy this video of Ryan peeps!!

haha!!

downgraded....

hmm...

it was 1 loong decision though...

but i guess it's time to do so..

b4 i wake up in anxiety again..

wat anxiety??

oh... i found ryan "missing" from my sight...

haha!!

actuali he is there but out of place...

so before he gets in a more worse senario.. i moved him out of my bed and he shall sleep in his own bed..so he will become like jailbird..keke!

well, sebenarnye, aku yang suka dia tido wit me on the bed, senang tak yah bangun2..haha!! yela.. aku yang malas..oh well...

so last night was a breeze, juz me who needed adjustment..

and though ryan felt diff abt his new sleeping area, he still managed to soothe himself to sleep..

thank God..

late....

counting the calendars again...

before declaring the RED zone...

oops!

no...

BIG OOPS!!!

Warfare...*yet again*

I was in the kitchen last night..

Lazily making hot milo..

then my eyes sat upon something..

and its alive...

A LIZARD!!!

i was stunned & my knees jellied..

somehow, i managed to call for help..

ya la.. so much of a help..must laugh first then help..but who cares!

all i wanted was it to be DEAD!

after much hilarious attempts and failed plans to "freeze" it by the generous spraying of insecticide, hub finally succeeded in throwing it out of our pantry..

yes it got flung only..

only to "ketepiak" on our air-con compressor...

wat the hell..

but ok la.. then we get back in our room, wer baby ryan was sleeping ever so soundly, to watch the HIKMAH Vcd...keke!

erm, btw, if anybody got tips on how to matikan lizard in the shortest time, do share wit me..i shall reward u handsomely if it werks...

grr! eeeeeeeeeee.........

well, in my absence..ceh, i had been busy covering the s'pore map with hub & baby..haha! suka nah habis kan minyak..hobi sejak zaman moto..

But i shall blogged about those significant event la..hokay..

1st up..we visited Helmi's old buddy whose wife juz gave birth to daughter Nur Syaqira..

Me wit the new born baby..Nur Shaqira

the jealous not so newborn baby..he majuk la..

the proud parent..Sam & Yvonne aka Nur Syafiqah..

one thing i must confess, their house was superb! with breath-taking scenery outside their flat..imagine la their house is on the 17th floor, overlooking clarqe quay and all..best!

budak nie masih majuk..eleh..step ajer tu dia..

majuk lagik..taknak tgk camera nih!

haha!! mama eksyen merajuk baru Ryan nak tgk camera... From there, we lunched @ marina Sq... and then, we chilled @ Yishun Dam.. damn! do i look pregnant? Jauhnye termenung dear.. Couplehood.. Parenthood..

oh, there was oso a meet up, last minute lagik, with herni & fizah.. took the train and waited for herni at the train platform.. and i had to guide Fizah on how to come to United Square..

haha!! baik aku jer jadi driver..hmm, dulu masa ayah sponsor, aku sia2 kan.. step pegi tapi tak gi, ntah brape kali extend.. last2 ayah tau jugak..buat $$ ayah jer enrol aku jadi student..bad, bad student...

oh well, as usual, jln2..mkn2.. Fizah had to leave @ 5.30..haiz, lupa nak take picture..

after dah penat jln..haus pulak.. nak minum bubble tea, taknak sembarang air..hmm..

so we took the train to sembawang, pahadal herni tinggal pasir ris seh.. and bought our drinks..

after tt, lepak @ my place while waiting for Herni's hub to fetch..keke!

for more pixs please click below..

Outing with Herni