its has been a wonderful, fulfilling, enjoyable weekend, spent with helmi. hehe! lets see..

Thursday, 25th May
juz werking.. oh yeah we went to KKH as mentioned in the previous post. It was to meet someone. dun misunderstood ok. while waiting, we went to 7-11 and bought instant spaghetti bolognaise, buns and grass jelly drink.. chatted and discreetly laughing..

Friday, 26th May
helmi went to Friday prayer then met me at home. we went to do all the paperworks for our "baby"..and balik lak2 kat umah with daddy, mama all.. then lepas magrib meet Zul, tony & partner at ECP, lepas tu "melalak" kat K-Box Cineleisure.. bukan main hebat lagi!! sekali terkene la aku pilih lagu yg menusuk hati zul. "terlanjur mencintaimu" something like tt.. Sori eh zul.. tak sengaja! hehe! i noe u tak marah but i feel bad to make kenangan flashbacks. but u reali sang well, full of passion.. i loike! 1 more time?? Oh.."makcik" of the month have to come on that nite. i was prepared cos i counted BUT i was hopeful i would miss it. haha! juz so, it would change cycle, so i wont be having it on ma wedding day. LECEH! well, 1 more month to see...and hope! Reached home ard 4+ am.

Saturday, 27 May
went to werk to do stuffs. helmi fetch after werk... well, the day didnt started out good but well, we sorted it out. great job to us! yehehehe! and on this day, our new "baby" was borned. Her name is NUR RINI NATASHA, borned on 27th May 2006. this "baby" run on 1000cc. Its helmi dream "baby", well one of it. We had planned for it after wedding but as the saying goes, " human proposes, GOD opposes. " or " kite merancang, Tuhan menentukan". so we had it coming earlier than expected. but well, Alhamdulillah, suma ok. here is something to share with you dear, if you read this...

" At first, i was scared at the fact tt we are upgrading to tt CC. I mean, the speed, i dunno if i can handle it. Seriously. Though i knew that we even went to Melaka on our previous GSX. but tt was before IT all happen. IT, u know wat i mean. IT happen because of the SPEED driven by that stupid idiotic irresponsible driver of tt bloody car! IT happen because he couldnt react having driven at that speed! IT was purely unacceptable! Since then, its phobiatic for me to be riding in high speed. It used to be, the faster the better. It used to be, speed is high adrenalin. It used to be, speed is thrilling and fun. But not anymore. The change to Super 4 was a good consolation. Konon relaks ar. i felt calm.
When you decide upgrade to the new 1000 bike, ma heart was like, " huh, dah tak relak?" " omigod, going at that speed on that CC." i know its ur passion..i agreed to it. But sekali, it turns out to be earlier tt expected. To confess, i was imagining the worse that can happen. Will happen. all because of IT. Now its us going at the speed. gosh! the news of all the accidents didnt help.
1st time i sat pillion on it, i felt jitters. ma feet went cold. excited YET nervous. ecstatic YET doubtful. but hey, it was not tt bad. maybe it was never bad, only just cos of IT. I shared with you ma darkest fears. BUT u managed to revive the confidence in me. i believe i have no qualms now. i trust ma life in your hands as always. Even if it happens, i know you will protect me, as you did when it happened ard 3yrs ago. oh now i realised y i find IT unacceptable! we had once an accident involving a speeding van tt send us flying to the yellow box, smashing ur IU unit, almost snapping ur foot rest or wateva u call it. but beside bruises, spoilt manicure & pedicure.. we were fine. ok ajal eh? k la.. i redha.. i rase.."

haiz, long story eh. must be saying i am stupid to have felt shitty bout a trivial matter. STOP THERE! you are not in my shoe, feeling the result of SPEED. so dun judge! anyway, whateva it is, its ma prerogative. oh btw, this is ma space.

Sunday 28th May
went to Mamat's wedding & Helmi's neighbour's wedding.. gosh.. paiseh org suma ckp2, " wah nak dekat...july..etc" went red-faced, or rather ears, many times.. then went homey.

Monday 29th May
Butler's training again!!! the saying, " if you can have wealth, werk with it or live with it" haha! butlers ONLY serve people who are borned lucky, with bank account of zillion $$$. shall continue tmr. gotta do homework and go training again tmr.

nite,
~rini~

after werk, we went to KK hospital.. was there till 2am... hmm.. somehow it reminds me... brings me back to the day dated, 18th june 2004 to 21st june 2004... missing you...

Good night, need to go airport 1st thing tomorrow morning to meet a guest...haiz..

~rini~

last nite, we ended up in the East side. east side ke? ermm.. well, we ended up in Bedok. here's why..

i had this sudden craving for yong tau foo... hehe! maner nak carik mlm2 & some1 claimed that Simpang Bedok ade..tapi kiter carik2 takde.. haiz.. den went down to Tampines... and we finally decided to eat at PAsir Ris..hehe! mkn nasi ayam yg western tu.. padahal kat Yishun nye A&A ade kan, but tak nak buat wasted trip since we were there...pastu balik..

hmm, a day b4 i had craved for Caesar Salad.. and i got it tt day itself!! Thank you dear...

ish.. agaknye aku same ngan ko tak Marlina.. asal nak tt time of the month jer macam2 craving! Kesian laki2 kiter, if 1 day preggy..haha!! siap ar drg.. asyik kene carik nie carik 2...Insyallah!

~rini~

phew.. juz had a warm bath!! a long warm bath...here the inside scoop of wat happen..

as usual after werk, decided to masuk JB. to makan the prata with sambal beside the ESSO/MOBIL. yum yum! then sit2..talk2.. laugh2 kira2 sehingga lah.. terasa angin sepoi2 menyapa pipiku! lalu meniup kencang... wahdu!! langit merah bagat... keputusan diambil untuk CABUT!! Sayangnye... tak lepas babe! hehe.. hujan membasahi...ceh! ..org suma lak2 kat kastam, kiter decide to rempuh! tak heran ar basah.. daripada tunggu.. well but safety yang aku risau actuali..

fuyoo.. bila kiter tul2 out in the rain, yang kelakar, aku sejuk sangat sampai sedawa2!! can anybody tell me the scientific link or the comment logic? sampai rumah, aku terus frozen..

dah la.. nak cleep. Tomorrow, 12pm must wake up... hehe!!

~rini~

The following newspaper snippet reali touched ma heartstrings...

it reminds me.. She left us on Father's Day..

" HAJAT Mohamed Faizal Omar, 21 tahun, ialah menjamu nasi ayam masakan ibunya bersama keluarga tersayang pada Hari Ibu Ahad lalu.
Namun, hajat anggota Perkhidmatan Negara itu tidak kesampaian apabila beliau menemui maut dalam satu kemalangan motosikal di Simei pada pagi Hari Ibu.
'Allahyarham tanya saya, besok Hari Ibu nak masak apa? Saya tanya apa yang beliau nak makan. Katanya nak makan nasi ayam kegemarannya.
'Rupanya itulah hajatnya yang terakhir,' cerita ibunya, Cik Amnah Ahmad, 58 tahun, dengan sebak mengenang saat-saat akhir bersama anak bongsunya itu.
Allahyarham Faizal, yang tinggal bersama seorang kakaknya, singgah ke rumah ibunya pagi Sabtu sebelum keluar bertemu rakan-rakannya.
Rumah Cik Amnah di Tampines Street 45 itu terletak beberapa blok jauh dari rumah kakak kedua Allahyarham, Cik Suzana Omar, 39 tahun, tempat Allahyarham tinggal.
'Pagi itu, temanitanya ajak keluar tetapi arwah memberitahunya dia ingin kemas rumah dan biliknya. Tersusun rapi dan terhias bilik yang ditinggalkannya itu,' kata Cik Suzana, seorang setiausaha guaman.
Menurut Cik Suzana, pemergiaan adiknya yang manja dengan nama timangan 'Bob', mengingatkan beliau tentang arwah ayahnya juga mempunyai gelagat yang sama - ingin mengemas rumah - sebelum meninggal dunia pada 1995 akibat kencing manis.
Allahyarham Faizal, anak bongsu daripada enam beradik, disahkan meninggal dunia di Hospital Besar Changi pada 7.45 pagi Ahad lalu setelah dikejarkan ke hospital itu sekitar 12 tengah malam.
Antara orang terakhir yang bersama Allahyarham adalah rakannya, Encik Ahmad Syukri Ibrahim, 24 tahun.
Menurut Encik Ahmad, mereka duduk berbual di Eastpoint, sebelum Allahyarham meminta diri untuk pulang malam Sabtu itu.
Encik Ahmad, yang bekerja sambilan di pusat membeli belah di Simei, berkata dalam perjalanan pulang ke rumahnya di Pasir Ris, beliau ternampak sebuah motosikal jenis Scrambler hitam tersadai di tepi jalan dekat Simei Street 4.
'Apabila saya lihat daripada dekat lagi, saya terperanjat melihat penunggang yang terlentang itu adalah kawan saya yang baru saja diajak bergurau senda 25 minit lalu,' cerita Encik Ahmad yang baru mengenali Allahyarham sekitar beberapa bulan yang lalu.
'Beliau tidak bercakap apa-apa, kecuali matanya terkebil-kebil ketika saya menanyakannya beberapa soalan.
'Apabila saya menanyakan tentang kekasihnya itu, air matanya mengalir,' sambung Encik Ahmad Syukri yang turut membantu Allahyarham mengucap syahadat.
Cik Amnah memberitahu bahawa Allahyarham berura-ura bertunang dengan temanitanya itu tahun hadapan.."

ouch! i cant stand this sentence..." Beliau tidak bercakap apa-apa, kecuali matanya terkebil-kebil ketika saya menanyakannya beberapa soalan. Apabila saya menanyakan tentang kekasihnya itu, air matanya mengalir..." the description of the sad senario seems to much for me to handle.

It's easy for people who read this to say, " dah ajal.." but no one will ever feel how it reali feels. you get in denial, get sad, get angry, get annoyed..all mixed up. truth is, the truth will never sink in. not in a million years, though we reali should redha. so please..let us be. oh gosh i am blabbering, am I? can never help it, this is ma channel for realising stress, even happiness..so lemme be..

ma hearts goes out to the family. condolences. be strong. i was there and am still here. in denial.

talking about it, it's been a while since i visited Her. Dear, bring me there....

~rini~

it had been tremendously jam-packed week for us.. many things tt we managed to accomplish.. the cabinets..etc.. hmm...well, i love busy days anyway so..i am not complainin!!

this is the best tt can happen..how can i put it eh.. ok juz to mark the date. Me & helmi now has a new "baby", in addition, to our current "baby"..heehe!! so now got 2 "babies".. best nye!! "baby" tu ape eh? hmm...not revealing now...maybe later..suka betul aku buat org suspen!!

oh yeah..i went to ma trial make-up..nice.. ice & itot followed and have been further bribed with Zam-Zam's murtabak treat for them to shut their mouth on how diff i look. hehe! and... ma kening have been shaped!! shuck.. knowing me yg tak kuasa, helmi juz laugh wen i nag on how later grow must dis la, tt ar.. BUT seriusly, at the current moment, as wat liz says, i look SOFT.. haha!! in fact i actually like it, juz tt i hate the hassle.. tau la aku, selalu siap tak sampai 10min.. takpe la. not gonna do anything about it.. nanti bila time kahwin anuh lagi den from there i see how. makao buruk sak, kening pon aku boleh jadi kan crita! Now, juz enjoying the soft look of ma face.. so pple can stop saying i look like step mother! *LOL*

we went karaoke with mama, ayah & zali, with zizie... gerek!! hmm..suka zali melalak2..

today, ma family brought sarah out..hehe! fun.. we went to collect baju2 tempah utk aku kahwin.. ish..ish

Helmi suka aku tak pakai make-up..well, as if i wear actually..make-up refers to eyeliner..hehe!he says very naturale beauty..ok puke if u want .. *blueks*


seronok helmi menyanyi.... sungguh touchin bila nyanyi lagu "permata buat isteri".."ku ingin kau jadi wanita mulia..yang tahu harga dan budi...seorang lelaki bernama suami...." us...e love birds... mama & ayah ku... helmi donning ayah jacket..me..as usual..dlm ladies..
familiku..with tunangku..ku..ku..ku.. takdak..ku amik picture.. semasa riwayat keningku masih-original.com haha!!tetap original..with zali...

yawnz... dah ngantuk.. i better sleep, if he finds out i still awake den tmr wake up late, cnfm marah..heehe!! tapi kejap.. tmr nak gi jln2 den go werk..tak sempat2 eh aku..

lina: kasi la aku tips camner nak "avoid2" hehe..susah sak..dah biasa jumpa hari2. takpe busuk2, start july 1st baru aku try hard2..*lol*

nites,

~rini~

that's it! its decided.... I wanna learn baking after marriage, in ma own kitchen!! muahahahaha!! darling, add Oven in the list baby!! yum..yum!



~rini~

*chuckles* so cute la u dear...I LOVE YOU!!!

adding on, hmm, yeah ma wish is for the marriage to be over with & start a new life in our bridal home. Not that i am not looking forward to wedding juz that well, in view of our marriage preps, house's decor..hmm, we have different views from both sides of families. ye la, diff peeps got diff taste rite? so its hard to decide on which. actuali senang crita, we can juz say, " we wanna our own choice/taste/etc..." but well, i guess we are trying to be a filial kid.. but its reali takin its toll..that at times, it brings us to arguments between ourselves, wit out realising.

But i am happy that we managed to handle it rationally and realise the root of problem. So we are tackling that. So the Akad Nikah is the oni thing we are looking forward to, when helmi will assume his position as ma lawfully husband to maself. guess, its hard to be the only boy marrying in the family & for maself, the only gerl marrying in the family, plus being the FIRST to get married on ma mummy's side...gosh!
haha! we call the parents, opppositions parties, in the heat of the elections...*laughs*
but dun wori, we noe tt they mean well.. hmm, after marriage must learn how to divide time for the 2 families..( read: 1st day hari raya) takpe..takes time..

kids... a colleague commented that i have the STEPMOTHER look.. wth!! haha.. but i think its true ar.. i cant warm up to kiddos.. hard! tapi taktau la, if i HAVE ma own, Insyallah, maybe it will be different. lets wait and see...

OH YEAH!!! selamat hari ibu utk MAMA ku... thank you for taking care of me for this whole 23 years..love you... (heehe! macam mama bace jer..but its ok..it can travel thru the heart-string)

till i write again,
~rini~

Helo cayang!!!!!!! i noe u have been waiting for me to write in the blog for quite sometime, here i am!!!!!!!!!! hehehehheheheh..........
Newy nothing much have been happening these few months oni we have pretty much settle wit our marriage rite sayang?
U want to noe someting, actually last week during ur trip to batu pahat, it was the most terrible two days that i had.. For the first time in my life i felt that im left alone in dis world... My family was oso not around my frends oso went to malaysia n worst my lovely fiance is oso in Malaysia..
I had to be very independent i have to cook for myself n eat alone.. so sad. I have never felt so miserable, dis is the first time i felt dat i miss u so much dear.. swear!!!
Haiz....... so boring i have to work now n u are sleeping soundly.. So jealous!!! n i have to work 7nites den iwill get my off.... i realli cant wait to get over wit the marriage n start to take classes, i tink i must start now to upgrade myself before i get old n have kids... hehehehe...
But i tink wen we start to have kids oreadi it wld be very diff rite to continue my studies? i dunno lah letz juz leave it to faith.. kalau ada rezeki mana tahu cepat dpt anak eh... heheheheheheheehehehehehe........... miang helmi..
Alamak kacau daun ar guest nie, dahlah sayang i rase i nak buat keje nanti free2 i drop in to write k.. love u lots!!!!






helmi

Helmi's aunt & uncle gave us cockeries, plates, dishes, cups & saucers, for our new house. so kind of them. its all brand new & well, of a well-known brand. and quilts, duvets too.. gee, thanks for all the support...

its back to werk tomorrow... ooohhhh nooooooooooo!!! gtg & wash up & cleep..

~rinie~

here's ma long due malaysia's trip pixs....courtesy of nana!!

Panjangnye rambut aku....

Ma bro zali..as usual, posing...
hai..hilal baju dah samer maam zebra tu...muahahhahaha!! supposed to b candid...Me & kuzzin nana...batch teenage..hehe!! the kuzzins..batch semi-teenage.. haha!! Dorang lagi...campur hilal & dian, batch bebudak kecik.. hah..there u have teenage + semi teenage + bebudak kecik kuzzins!!
muka buruk sak baru bangun!!! wakakakaka!! Kuzzin ica & kuzzin maya4 dara...princess rini masih ngorok!!
hah..nie 4 dara biol!!Kuzzin ica nak bedal zali...real ar!!Car 1Car 2
Car 3

And a Van....ayah & zali..mother & daughterKuzzins United!! ya well.. not complete..argh!! mata tutup lakhmm...Family metropolitan..*chuckles*Bride & groommakaning...tu jer...had so much fun but helmi was not around to complete it for me..*sad* its ok, we are united now..hahaha!!

~rini~