mama flew off oreadi.
to haj.alone.
to do it for ma late lil sis.
SAD.sad.SAD....
enjoy e pixs of those who follow(limited)..but full famil pix, gotta wait for ma bro to upload.enjoy wat i have here, while i continue to wait for mama's call......

me..tryin to hold all tears...kanot tahan!! nvr take pixs 2 orf...nanti dush!!!

Rini & e boys...we have been frens since old skool daes!! love u guys...Rahmat wuz not from skool but childhood...loongg..long time ago story..
(clockwise; wan jepon(in blue), Apen(black), ME & rahmat.














me wit their partners...Shah hida(rahmat) in blue, Ila(apen) in pink..yup, marlina, tts is wan jepon 1st daughter.




lastly.....lets present e wedding couple!!!















hmm, thanks ila for uploadin e pix 4 me... no emotions AT ALL on tt dae... seriusly, i swear! anywae, i reali do cherished all ma best buds..to me, der r e one who would stand by u at any time of ur rollercoaster ride in life...AND ITS PROVEN....trust me..

feelin shitty at this point of time...i hate e skool!! y must dey start skool on dis very FUCKING dae...STOOPID SKOOL!!!!! ARGHH!!!! goddamn it.... well...wateva ya!!

i tink i need serius help..i feel like a killer at times...maybe i have a murderer trapped in me...maybe...wenever anger penetrates in me, it almost uncontrollable! ma ears goes super red!! n i mean it...y e anger? i dunno... sometimes i expect too much...tt explains y most of e time i prefer to be cold n unloving..it stops me from expecting n i will be much happier...

its better to be cold & unfeelin i guess. u will nvr be affected by any Fuckin things that happen with or without u expecting it...SERIOUSLY!!!

its better to tink of yourself 1st i guess....

wateva it is....Ifa, liza,aishah, haryana, haryani, yanni, rahmat, apen, wan, eddy.....

i love u guys!!!!

n u too dear, helmi....thanks 4 understandin ma anger prob..i reali love u !!!

wateva happens its nobody's fault....i expected too much.

love, rini

THE POWER OF BLOG
i wuz going thru ma frenster as usual, n as a known fact tt i lurves to read, i was oso goin thru updated blogs on top of e oreadi-linked blogs/webby. @ 1 particular blog, i wuz extremely touched tt i wuz e subject of e entry. Hey Liz, tt bear up der is for u. i grew? u nvr knew? well, i didnt realised tt either till u highlighted it. seriusly, i wonder, do i ever grow from wat i wuz? haha!! maybe i did!! i said was..*LOL* see peeps, thru blogs, u write wat flows within. by in life, its forever a stage...so e power of blogs is incredible. u would nvr realise the once 13-yr old fren is now 23-yr old, goin on to 24 n married life...*somebody, stop e time clock!!*



THE WEDDING
i lied. but not to myself though.oni in e blog. i said i wasnt goin but hey, I DID!! i werk @ 9am though...took time off, left @ 2. Met e kuzzins @ 3+ and went. well, kinda of felt outta place, nana wit najib, ewan & ijal wit e boys.*haiz* dah tu , tgk Leman on e pelamin wit e lawfully wife... gee.. Then, i saw Rahmat(tommy), Apen & Wan!!! woohoo!!!! i jumped on them and sat rite thru wit them...POWER!!! i joked ard n create havoc..haha!! we laugh, laughs, laughed n nearly cried laughing..joked about our old times we had together..gosh, we reali hv grown. ya liz, we grew past times...Wan jepon dah kahwin, dahde 2 princess, Natalie & Natasha.... wen we wanted to take pix wit e pengantin, its started to drizzle. wen i stand in front of e pelamin in front of dem, it rained heavily, strong wind blowing, I SWEAR!!! damn strong!! e red carpet got blown off, n e photographer had to shout,"pegangkan carpet!", den e other things started to drop oso!! including e lampstand on e pelamin!! hah!! den Rahmat shouted, " eh, pegang suma!!!" hahaha!! e power of ma feelings...LOL!! kidding...
Rahmat n shah hida sent me back home...Btw, Apen, hepi Bdae!!

stay tuned...i will update e pixs ok!

its been a hectic dae 4 me...

y'dae, thursdae, despite e fearful thinking of goin in JB, i eventually relent and off we breeze into JB...hmm, not too bad actually...well, maybe wat helmi says is true, pple are taking advantage of e news report of wateva tt happen & create bogus smses to further intensify e already tense situation there. By creating fear in the timid hearts of tame s'poreans, e problem to endless long Qs into Jb & out would be solved. Incredible!! Warning: this is juz an assumption!!! entering JB is STILL @ your own risk.. dis pix wuz wen helmi had his biggest bike, Yikes badan pon terjadi hunky!!

Today, e 31st of Dec, i m werking 3-1am...i m counting down e ritz way!! *sobz* its ok, darling helmi will be ard too... lets usher in the new year without forgetting our past mistakes, yeah..but dun dwell on it, to make sure its not repeated again to create sorrows or regret...yes, we move on but dun 4get those who are gone... lets make our life more enlighten, smile more..hehe! uh huh..i noe easier said than done. its ok..lets try..

all rooms division leaders gonna be around to assist ushering the new year with e luxuries crowd....yippee!! i simply lurves wen we all werk together professionally!!

enjoy ur day peeps...miz ya all!!! next yr, wic is starting from tmr...busy, busy!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL MA FRENS.................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yanni, the bracelet i'v got... --------------------------------------------------->

i tied ma hair in a different style todae,for werk, using wax & to ma utter surprise, wen i let it go at home(read:after ard more den 12hrs) it bloom to a beautiful curls...aaaaah! noice!! mama even tot i went to hv it done @ saloon...heheheheheeh!!

i went shopping..yes, again

1.maya's gift
2.ma beg
3.helmi's toiletries
4.mama's hp accesories(had it personalised 4 her)
5.ma toiletries
6.groceries(cornflakes, bottles of milks, packets of chicken nugget)

well, at least dis shopping is not so self-centred, so i m not sentenced to guiltiness. haah!! i wanna bring helmi shoppin tomorrow b4 werk...ish, bile nak beli "gifts" eh?? hmm...k lah post new year sale ar...*tsk*

well gtg...wanna hv ma beauty sleep!!!!!!!