Jangan Sakiti Aku Lagi

This song on my blog..

dedicate to my best frens..

Hope we can go thru this stormy episode..

Listen especially to the Chorus..

"jangan sakiti aku lagi bila tak suka
dan jangan dustai lagi bila tak cinta
aku bisa terima bila ternyata kau jauh"

Jom tonggek lagi!

haha!

siak ar...

My title sound so crude..

Bt it is not wat u all may be thinking..

noti eh!

today, we sent Ryan to his emi parent house and fetch zali..

Fetch pi aner eh..

pi skool!

Cos we taking his bike for a ride..

gosh!

I was having butterflies in my tummy and all.

dah masuk 2 tahun lebih seh tak naik moto..

makao!

but wateva it was, I was fine once i sat on tt pillion seat..

adrenalin rush seh..!

posture check!

settings check!

off we go..

seronok you to relive those good ol' days..

conclusion?

it was FUN..

But..

I think i prefer 1000CC bike..

haha!!

mungkin dah sedap naik 1000cc dulu, macam rindu pulak tt kinda speed..

ye la, Aprilia tu pon power but still 2B kek..

rase pressure dia..!

keke!

Nie aku mentel2..

KL Trip...!

phew!

We made it to & fro with the smoothest journey 1 could ever imagined with an 11-month old on tow.

Ryan slept like thruout the journey each time..

best you...!

Yang best lagik was all expenses was taken care of..

We stayed in Melaka for 1 nite..

Had ikan bakar & seafood..

naik motor kapcai ngan hubby..

Best!!

Then next morning set off for Shah Alam, KL..

For the Nikah ceremony at nite..

the Sanding the next day..

And Hotel Dinner on the Sunday..

Grand giler ko..

maklum la anak datin & datuk..

itu la kuzzin laki aku..

aku pon berangan kaya la..

we had 3 bungalow, huge bungalows to choose from..

We didnt stay at the bride's bungalow as too hectic la..

so we stayed with hub nye pak long's bungalow, erm it is their mcm vacation house..which was 3 house away..

Very NICE big 2 storey house with white interior..

damn nice!!

Diyanah nye dream house became mine!!

I wanna a house of that kind too!!

untung drg..pat Spore dah duduk big 2 storey house pat KL pon ade lagik biggie house..

dah la tu, drg nye ONLY son yg still studying in Aust, langsung tak spoilt BRAT seh..

and he is our age..

sungguh inspirational..

I wanna retire early like them too, since they shared that they started out like us too..

tapi penat jugak naik turun tangga tu, takpe, aku practise dulu la..besok pi beli masionette.

hehe!

well, ok malas nak load pix now..

but juz a few ok..

The nikah part..

The sanding..

The dinner @ Sheraton..

tata!!

will update more!!

on the upcoming bdae & the full KL pixs..!

WAKE UP YOUR BLOODY IDEAS!!!

haha!!

I wonder, I so wonder..

why is this world blinded by wealth and successes..?

For decades..

Oh no.. in fact more..

we had been true thick & thin..

up and downs..

round & round..(ok ok not funny huh..!)

we even had a video created by Liz, a personalized video show-casing us..

just us..

Ifa, being the more cautious one and the pretty thing among us all had never been on any of our nerves when torrents of guys bugged us for her contacts. Instead of betraying her, we protected her privacy even if it meant disappointing the boys..

Aishah, being the extremely perfectionist one but still, one who always made us wait for minutes, hours or days..Instead of leaving her out in any of our meet-up, we made efforts to put our appointment time earlier or whatever it takes so taht we can have a proper get-together.

Liz, the eldest of all yet the most petty, sory! It was never reali on our nerve as we understood she was the youngest in the family while all 3 of us, who are younger than her, are all the eldest in our individual families..

See, we appreciated each others companies yet lived with the flaws..

We were HAPPY..

Blissfully happy in our innocent lives..

Carefree most of the times..

But now,

it seems that things has changed 360 deg..

I wonder why?

was it because now that we each have husbands & kids, we have lesser times for each other?

Or was it because now, out of 4, 3 is married and the 1 feels left-out..

But as far as I recall, every efforts have been made to keep the flames going..

Or it is because now that I am reaping more juice of success, as u may have feel, I appeared more callous?

More callous and aloof than I already looked?

haiz..

I have always said to myself..

No One Shall Judge Me Other Than Allah..

similarly like how I should not be too quick to throw judgement on anyone whom I barely know.

Unless, it is someone who have cause grievous hurt to me or my family..

But for some1 to judge you only after knowing you for decades, it seems so ridiculous and sad..

If you would asked, why now?

U mentioned we should understand her..

As far as I & Liz knows, being married, we should never wash our dirty linens to others.

Even though we are best of frens, even if we sense anything wrong, it is not right for us to poke our nose and probe if everything is ok.

We should trust that all is blissfully good.

And if it is not, we are all ears and our shoulders are ready for you to cry on.

We are not magician to read your mind / heart or wateva..

it is simply not as easy as it used to be...

Last time, it would be at most about projects, BGR, tak bawak buku la, lupa P.E attire la..

Or worse, TAK BLAJAR UNTUK TEST / EXAMS..etc

But now, it is more serious life issues ok..

Fuck!

I am going on & on about it..

I think no time for each other resulted in feeling that no one cares and in turn the mind settled that it is all because of success & moolahs & all those material shit!

But deep down, we know that..

WE STILL CARE........

at least I feel that I still do..

Please...

This ranting is not to penalise any1 of us..

Not to pin-point anybody or watsoever..

But just to make you think..

Think of all the good times..those laughters..

And as I had read Liz blog, I just have to agree with her..

Maybe both of us have got so comfortable with our life..

So much so that we get drowned by our own happiness..

Liz, a happy SAHM, with her family, dependable husband, 2 beautiful kids and a home..

Me, happy with my dear hubby, joyful son, a roof on our head, all the assets in our clutch, beautiful family and family-in-law, a job we called career..

But lemme tell you, and i believe Liz would agree so much with me, it is human relationship taht matter most and NEVER the material part..

You wanna know y?

Cos we reali value kinship, friendship..

And reason y I always bothered to make dates to meet, is simply to strengthen the relationship that I felt was straying away..

And wanna know y we reali treasure the people around us?

Simply cos, we have both lost our loved ones..

How much we missed them can never ever be amounted to anything at all..

NOt sure abt her but to close the pain, I kept myself busy with worldly goals..

Never have i forgotten my ukhrawi but that is something that i dun have to show off rite?

And because of that pain and the fact that I have to show a strong front to my mom, dad and brother so that they can get on with life too, I have become more stoic and unfeeling, something which I dun deny..

I seem more aloof but trust me, I am still warm-hearted.

I may say i dun care but I do..

Strong peeps need a shoulder to cry too..

Just that I am destined to be one who can never show my emotions openly, even if I want to..

Only twice it happened, on the 18th of June 2004, the day of her accident.

And 21st of June 2004, the day I kissed her my last goodbye...

If Allah can give back my lil sis in trade of the materialistic assets that I have, the success that I have gained, I WOULD..

but Just lemme keep my family..

My husband..

and my son..

Just so that..

My family portrait will never have a missing jigsaw puzzle again...

E-invitations...

To those who ask me the details...

Here it is...

Do contact me for further details, but there may be delay cos I will be goin to KL tomorrow right thru next week!!

best nyeeeeeeeeeeee!